Undercover

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Lauren's POV

"My name is really Lauren Michelle Jauregui Morgado, also known as L.J Michie.

You know how I told you I was living with Ally in L.A for 2 years? I actually lived there for 3. The last one in a rehabilitation center, y'know rehab.

I was originally going to L.A Because I needed to get away from Miami. In 7th grade I was bullied, really bad at that. There were rumors spread around that I was gay in middle and of course, I went to a religious private school so I was always the center of attention and not in a good way. I was shoved into lockers and getting my head flushed down the toilet, 'y'know the stereotyped bullying. But it got way worse, I was called things like fat, ugly, worthless and I was called a dyke or a lesbian a lot too. Instead of the swirlies and shoves I was used to, I got beatings in place of them.

In 8th grade it somehow got worse. I was coming home each night with a completely totaled body with blood, gashes and bruises all over me. The things I was getting called worsened with every day and eventually I started to believe what everybody said about me was true.

One day after the final bell rang, I was beaten so badly that I woke up in the hospital. I fell into a severe depression at the age of 14 and by this point my parents had enough. They were sick of the way those little bastards treated me and went down to the school to confront them, of course my bullies' parents were rich and payed the school to keep quiet.

My parents then decided that it would be best if I moved in with Ally in L.A to have a fresh start at in a city where nobody knew me. Instead of going to school, I auditioned for X factor. By the age of 15 I had won the competition, got signed to a record label and had my first album released. But I never showed my face on X factor, I wore a mask so nobody would recognise me and pick up where they left off. I ended up keeping the mask and I've never shown my face to anyone besides my record label, Simon and Alyx.

My depression was getting better and by this point I was almost off my pills. I kept my image a secret from the public and used a fake name when I became famous. I started to take self defense classes, by my mothers demand, and by the time I got off of my anti-depressants I was I black belt in martial arts.

For a while things were great. I stopped harming myself and I was off my pills, I had my dream come true and I was living with my cousin I hadn't seen since she moved away in 5th grade.

But then Ally's parents started fighting and were never home. Ally was my support system in L.A and her parents were hers. Since we both lost the support we needed, Ally and I turned to the only thing she could think of : alcohol.

It started out as a few sips here and there but overtime I became hooked to the burning sensation in my throat which lead to my addiction.

It was a few months later that Ally's parents got a divorce and the alcohol wasn't having an effect on me anymore so I turned to drugs. Ally had stopped a few weeks prior to the divorce and she was getting better at handling her pain.

At the age of 16 I was out all night drinking and smoking weed, popping pills and snorting cocaine. Anything I could get my hands on, I used. I was getting in fights with random people and I lost some of my closest friends, well the few I had. Ally was in no position to help me like she did with the depression and I just kept getting worse.

I hit rock bottom and started to do some disgusting things for money and basically anyone who asked. Ally found me one night when things got out of hand and I almost got raped.

Eventually, I had to put my recording contract on hold while I went to rehab for excessive drinking and over dosage of drugs. I spend a year in that rehabilitation program, where I met Troye.

He helped me just like Ally did except I was there to help him get through his addiction too. I had no idea at the time, but he had to put his career on hold as well for the same reason I did.

Earlier this year, Troye and I were released from the rehab center and picked back up on our recording contracts. Everything was okay for about 3 weeks before my manager gave me an ultimatum.

Go back to Miami and go to school

Or

Have my image released to the public along with my rehab story

I picked school because I'm still a teenager and I wanted to experience what it's like to blend in for once. Plus I'm not ready to have all of that fame, I mean I'm only 17 this year and I don't want to be recognized everywhere I go"

I look up and see....

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A/N : Sooo... Yeah, that's Lauren's secret.

Is that what you were expecting or were you completely wrong? Who do you think Lauren was talking to?

Anyway, I'm actually really sick at the moment and it's gonna take me a couple weeks to get over it. I had this saved as a draft and just quickly edited it, I'll release a few more drafts but I won't be writing until I'm feeling better.

Bye Bitches,

-M