I remember it clearly. The way he left without any care I the world. The smile as he fell. My cry as I realised I would never get him back. The fact he never wanted me. No matter how many time he said he was okay. Or that he was just having a bad day. They were all bad days. All of them.
"I wrote this song for you." I whisper as a tear fills down my cheek and hits the piano keys under m fingertips.
(Play song)
"How can I say this without breaking
How can I say this without taking over
How can I put it down into words
When it's almost too much for my soul alone
I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you I loved and I loved and I lost you
And it hurts like hell
Yeah it hurts like hell
I don't want them to know the secrets
I don't want them to know the way I loved you
I don't think they'd understand it, no
I don't think they would accept me, no
I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
And it hurts like hell
Yeah it hurts like hell
Dreams fight with machines
Inside my head like adversaries
Come wrestle me free
Clean from the war
Your heart fits like a key
Into the lock on the wall
I turn it over, I turn it over
But I can't escape
I turn it over, I turn it over
I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
And it hurts like hell"
Arms are wrap around my shoulders and squeeze me tightly. I look up to see Ohm with a sad smile. Hes the only person to know about my feelings for Smitty. What Smitty did hurt me more than anything else in the world.
"We found this up where he uhm... jumped." Ohm said before handing me a paper.
Dear Everyone
I'm sorry. I had to go. The constant expectations from everyone just got too overwhelming. My fans, I am sorry. Ohm thankyou for being such a good friend. Evan, thankyou for helping me get this far in youtube. Craig thanyou for being therewhen I needed you. And to everyone else, thankyou for being you. Thank you all for supporting me. I am truly sorry but, I had to go.
Love,
The one and only Smii7y
My tears stain the sheets. He said nothing about me. Even though I've been there longer than anyone. He probably forgot about me. That's usually how it works.
(Smii7y's POV)
After seeing how sad (Y/N) is without me I began to regret my decision. My decision to leave this world. I regret not telling her how much she meant to me. Or how happy she made me. My own depression clouded my thoughts so that not even I could think about the happiest thing in my life.
If I had known that suicide would leave me in a never ending black void i never would have done it. But I guess that's why they say you never know what you have until you lose it, and it hurts like hell.
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Vanossgaming Crew One shots
Fanfiction**Trigger Warning** There will be self harm in this book, along with suicide and such. This book contains happy, sad, and weird one shots. Requests are always open until I state that they are not. I may write smut in the future but as of now it's...
