It is said that between two people there is always someone who loves more and most. Of times it is usually the same person who notices the end before it comes. It feels suicidal to go beyond reason and still hope that it might get better, that the love may stay, that there has to be a way to fix everything. Yet the heart still breaks, but it still beats. It may crack into a million tiny little pieces creating this unknown dread within your soul, but it still beats. What an ironic way of living in and out of mind. Of love. Of heart. How can we love more, give more, lose more and still be our own hero? How do we live when our own heart doesn't even belong to us anymore? How can we be the ones to see the end when forever is all we hope? Why, out of every cruel person in this world, do we have to live with the constant pain of knowing that we may never be good enough? Even though we constantly give ourselves and everything we have left of the empty shells we are to the people we love most?
It's sad isn't it? That because we are who we are, and we love how we love, that we expect nothing but we are still let down.
We know we will never get there, we will never obtain the love we deserve because we feel we are unworthy and we choose the most toxic relationships.
Relationships filled with infidelity, trust issues, domestic abuse and violence. All because we degrade ourselves and we fall in love with the people who don't deserve us.
Now excuse me I may be getting off track but do you see who you've become? Do you notice the way you don't care anymore?
How sad and broken you are now? How you constantly try to better yourself for someone only to be let down because they either didn't notice or didn't care?
You constantly try so hard only to be let down by something you couldn't care less about but you only do it to please someone who may never even love you the way you love them!
You know it has to end, you subconsciously know it has to stop.
But you keep going.
Why?
Why do you do this to yourself? Why do you put up with this?
Darling you are so much more than what you think you are. You deserve so much better.
You deserve the world!
But you believe that you don't.
And it breaks my heart to know that you care more about others than yourself.
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Vanossgaming Crew One shots
Fanfiction**Trigger Warning** There will be self harm in this book, along with suicide and such. This book contains happy, sad, and weird one shots. Requests are always open until I state that they are not. I may write smut in the future but as of now it's...
