the ballad of me and my brain ; rants

july 15th; hi me again

I wanna write again I miss writing sm like I wasn't really that good but I still enjoyed it

I don't wanna write fanfic tho smh

I wanna write fiction w my own original characters or another rant type book that's more journal-esque u feel

the problem is I'm afraid to write in it like a real journal because in journals I get HELLA real and I wanna be able to write just about every detail of my life without worrying about irl's finding it

like tea gets spilled and I don't wanna be exposed because iT HAPPENED BEFORE and it was a BAD situation ha

I've been considering writing events in my life with different characters but I'd worry that without realizing it I would end up writing the character "playing" me differently than a character I'm not basing off myself u know

sigh

idk maybe I'll change my mind and something will come about we'll see I guess

if u have any ideas or something lmk I guess lmfao idfk