you think girls are like stones
you can skip them across a river.
when you get tired of looking at one,
you can toss it across,
and watch it leap over sun diamonds,
trying desperately to reach heaven.
I remember
when I thought you loved me
you couldn't pull your eyes
from the hollows of my collarbones
and the curve of my neck.
but you thought my heart was too bold
and that it didn't need yours
so you tossed me across.
I remember
when I thought you loved her
and I was left to swallow my tears
and use ice to shield the pieces of me
that were breaking.
you liked her dependence on you,
she didn't make you feel small.
but it was the boldness you loved,
so you tossed her across.
I remember
all the hearts you held
in the palm of your hand.
and the girls
you tossed across the sea.
and even after all that,
you look for me
and my boldness.
but I'm already gone
you threw me across a long time ago.
but I'll tell you a secret:
sometimes, when the tide is high,
I forget your wrongdoings
and sit at the edge of the sea
trying to catch a glimpse of you
skipping stones across the water
searching the horizon
for the boldness you lost.
