His Best Friends//S.M

30-How it Ends.

A/N- I want to dedicate my final chapter to my best friend: alexandramarieW
Please check out her stories,

Anywayyyyyyy......

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-1 month later-

---Simon's POV---

"Simon dude, we're going to get some food, you want any?" JJ asks, stood outside my bedroom.

"I'm good thank you" I sigh,

"You need to eat something" he says, coming into my room now.

He sees me laid in bed once again and sighs,

"I get that you miss her, but you need to get out. She's gone Simon, if she came back right now and saw you like this, she'd tell you to get up and go enjoy yourself instead of moping around all day"

The thought of her coming back pains me, I wish she would, but I know she won't.

What if she stays in Thailand?

What if she comes back, but finds someone else?

What if she doesn't want me anymore?

I can't handle losing her,

I can't lose her.

"Not today" I sigh, "I just need some more time, I need to edit" I make a stupid excuse.

"Simon you haven't uploaded, or filmed for two weeks. And the only reason you uploaded before was because they were preprepared"

He's right, I've been letting everyone down.

I need to apologise to my viewers.

JJ sighs again, "okay bro, just do something to take your mind off it, okay?"

I nod and he leaves, I get out of bed and walk into the bathroom.

Even if I have been moping around all the time, hygiene is something I've been keeping up.

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I get into the shower and begin to wash my hair, after a minute or two, I just place my hand on the shower wall in front of me, and as if from a movie, I begin to cry.

I just let it all out, we weren't even together that long, but I really thought she was the one.

I could imagine myself growing old with her.

I guess she didn't see it the same.

I don't want to fight for her, because I don't want to upset her, but I want her back so bad.

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I eventually get out of the shower and put some grey SDMN joggers and an all black SDMN tshirt on, these clothes are comfortable and even a tiny bit of comfort is incredibly helpful right now.

I sit down at my desk and pick my phone up.

I go onto twitter and see hundreds of tweets from fans about how I am.