His Best Friends//S.M

29-"It's all over."

*a week later*

"Are you ready?" My father asks, looking towards me with a look of sympathy, which is really making me feel worse if anything.

I nod, not enthusiastically at all, I've been dreading this day for a whole week and now its here I feel even worse.

I pick up both of my suitcases and take them downstairs, before going back up and getting my rucksack.

I unplug my charger from the room, before putting it and my phone into my bag.

I walk to the door and look back at my bedroom, it looks...empty.

I sigh and close my eyes, biting my lip.

A tear rolls down my face as I shut the door behind me, leaving my bedroom for the last time for 18months, maybe the last time ever.

Who knows, Adele might find someone else, my dad and I might settle in Thailand, anything could happen.

I really hope this all works out,

I see them all stood in the hallway downstairs, Adele, my dad, Ethan and the boys.

I'm already crying and I know this is going to make me even worse.

I see Simon stood there, standing out from everyone else.

I've had the most amazing week with him, and I love him so much, but I can't keep him on a string like this for so long.

I can't give him hope if there is no reason to have any.

He can find someone else, someone who can be here for him.

I couldn't do it before now, I wanted--

I needed to spend as much time with him as possible.

I begin bringing my bags forward, struggling.

Simon and Tobi walk to me, one of them taking a suitcase each, leaving me with my backpack.

"Thank you" I force a smile out for them, it is not large, nor meaningful, just a representation of my appreciation.

Both of them do the same, along with the others as my dad and I walk out.

They follow us, which means that this goodbye will be outside and probably less awkwardly stuffy.

We take my bags to the car and everyone stands together on the driveway, the same look on everyone's faces, more intense in some than others.

No one wants this to happen, and no body thought it would. It's just so fast and unexpected.

Adele and my dad are getting some of his stuff from inside, saying their goodbyes I guess.

I stand staring at them all, every single one of them have their eyes fixed on me.

I can see tears in his eyes, Simons eyes.

I stare just at him now, I don't want to leave him, not like this.

I run over and jump into his arms, he wraps his around my waist and lifts me up, so I wrap my legs around him.

We just stay in that position for what I wish was forever, but was actually a couple of minutes.

I put my legs to the floor and pull away from him. We couldn't have stayed like that for much longer, it's kind of...awkward I guess. Not that I would let that stop me holding him, but we have to go soon.

"I love you" he says, looking straight into my eyes, he doesn't care if the others hear him now,

"I love you too" my tears begin to start again.

I hug him again and begin saying goodbyes to all of the other boys, I'm not done with Simon yet though.

I cry throughout every single one.

The boys do their best to comfort me and they all say how it won't be long until I'm back and that I'll enjoy some piece and quiet away from them, but none of that is true.

18 months is never going to go by fast and I'll miss them so much.

They'll probably have forgotten about me by the time I'm home.

I go back to Simon and look him straight in the eyes,

"I'm going to be gone a while" I start my sentence quietly, as if I didn't want the others to hear, even though I know that they can.

I was kind of hoping that they'd not be here for this conversation.

Tobi begins speaking to the boys and gets a general conversation going between the others.

"I don't want you to wait for me Simon,"

"What do you mean?" I understand why he would be confused, but I also know that he is only asking this question to confirm his worries.

"It would be unfair to go away and leave you waiting, I want you to be happy"

"You make me happy Jade,"

I sigh, he makes me happy too, but I have to do this.

"Thailand is a long way away from here, and it would be unfair for me to do that to you"

"We can Skype, I'll fly out there, please Jade"

I just shake my head, I close my eyes for this as I can't bare to see his reaction.

"I'm sorry Simon"

I open my eyes to see a single tear roll down his face, I take him into my arms,

"I love you and you know that, but I can't handle it being like that" I say, "you'll find someone else who can be here for you, I bet you'll have forgotten about me in a week" I laugh.

"I don't want anyone else" he says, pulling away.

This really breaks my heart.

I thought he thought of me as just a teen-like fling, but I guess not.

I look straight into his eyes and kiss him one last time.

"I'll miss you Simon, but this is for the best"

My father walks out with Adele and I say my definite final goodbyes to the boys.

I say the same to her and begin walking over to the car with my dad.

I look back to see Simon crying into JJ's shoulder, I feel so bad but it's done now.

I get into the front and begin crying again.

I watch through the window as Simon is still crying, I really hate to see him like this.

I wish I didn't have to go.

I give a small, forced smile to the boys as my dad begins to drive.

It's all over.

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A/N- this is written so poorly lololololololol

I might rewrite it idk,

Penultimate chapter ladsss,

Love you all xx