I think I'm a machine
Am I sleep walking?
Well I have given up
I'm always lost in thought
It's almost like I'm already gone
Does anyone see me?
I feel like I'm going around and around
Spinning in circles
Does this even end
I take two steps forward
Five steps back
I fall and scrape my knees
I recover
Seems like I'll be alright
Then I fall and break my arm
I'm forced to move on
But it's all to fast
I just need to catch my breath
But it's all to much
I can't process anything
Your throwing more information at me
And more pain
And more hate
And making me stress
And with each blow you throw
It breaks my heart
I'm just too fragile
But I can't take all this
I can't take it all at once
I want to get better
Feel alive again
But I think I'm getting worse
I've forgotten what it's like to feel something
To feel alive
But I guess it's ok
Because
I no longer know what I'm missing
I'm losing my memory
Just to try
Try to keep track of today
They say not to live in the past
But the past is all I have
And I don't think I'm alive anyway
Sorry if I'm never really here
I'm lost in thought
I'm lost in my pain and confusion
Trapped in my castle of misery
I want to escape
Get away from it all
I know I can't run from my problems
And I know I have issues
But can we ignore that
Can we forget that for just one day
Because it's too much
And I want to be able
To look forward to the future
I want to laugh
I want to be happy
Don't you think it's about time I get a shot
A shot at having a good time
A shot at feeling alive
A shot at happiness
But I take two steps forward
five steps back
Maybe my merry-go-round will stop spinning
Maybe I can get off this ride
Maybe sometime soon
Oh
I sure hope so
Because Hope is all I've got left
Kayla Worley
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Life Is An Adventure
PoetryThis is some of the pomes I've written put into a book. Each chapter will be a different pome, except the first chapter which is basically what I say here.
