Hidden Feelings

•Chapter 29•

OWENS POV
Amelia was in an accident and Arizona called me. My mind was racing. I found Arizona in the hall.
"Where is she?" I asked.
"Owen," Arizona started, "you can go see her but I need to talk to you first."
"Okay what's wrong?" I asked.
"She was raped owen," she said quietly, "I know you want to be there for her, but she might want to be left alone okay, so just be considerate."
"Oh my god," I said. I felt my heart beat faster as I got closer to her room. Arizona had all the blinds shut and she opened the door. Amelia was rolled over facing the window.
"I have someone for you," Arizona said.
Amelia looked over at me. Her face was all bruised.
"Hi," Amelia said quietly. She rolled over and faced me. I pulled up a chair and Arizona left us alone.
"Hey," I said.
"So you know?" She asked.
"Yes," I said. She sat there quietly and looked at me.
"It was my fault," she said, "I wasn't strong enough."
"Honey this is not your fault," I said. She sat up and looked like she was in pain.
"Ow," she groaned.
"What hurts?" I asked.
"My back," she complained.
"Can I kiss you?" I asked.
"Yes come here," she said. I leaned in and felt her kiss me. She pulled away and looked at me.
"I'm sorry," she said.
"It's ok," I said.
"Does everyone know what happened?" she asked.
"I don't think so," I said.
"Owen what if I get pregnant?" she said.
"We will talk about that if it happens okay?" I said.
"Don't hate me," she said crying.
"I will never hate you for this," I said. Someone knocked on the door.
"Can you check who it is?" She asked.
"Yes," I said. I got up and opened the door a crack. Meredith and Derek were standing there.
"Can we see her?" Derek asked.
"Amelia?" I looked at her.
"Yea," she said.
AMELIAS POV
I felt so tired and my head really hurt. I let Mer and Derek come on. I reached for Derek's hand.
"Are you okay? What happened who did this?" Derek asked. I sat there quietly.
"I don't wanna talk," I said.
"Okay," Meredith said. I could feel them all looking at me.
"Can I talk to Meredith alone?" I asked.
"Yeah," Owen said. Him and Derek both left and Meredith moved closer.
"I don't want Derek to freak out, but I was raped Meredith and I don't want to talk about it and I want everyone to stop looking at me like I'm going to break because I'm not okay but I don't know what to do," I started crying.
"Oh my god Amelia," she said.
"I just want to go home," I said.
"Okay," she said.
"I tried kissing Owen," I said softly.
"What happened?" She said.
"I couldn't," I kept crying.
"I'm sure he understands," she said.
"He's trying to," I said.
"You know you can talk to me about anything," she said.
"I know," I said.
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•a few days later•
I get to go home today. My bruises got a little better and a couple of my cuts healed. I got up and grabbed my phone. Owen opened the door. I grabbed his hand. He kissed my head and it felt kinda good. I stopped him and wrapped my arms around his neck. I pressed my lips against his and images of me getting raped came back. I pushed off him.
"I'm sorry I thought I could," I said.
"It's okay honey," he said. We walked out to his truck and drove home. I walked inside and decided to shower.
"I'm gonna shower okay?" I asked.
"Okay," he said. I walked into the bathroom. I looked at the bruises on my face and the few on my back. I turned the water on and just started crying. I sat on the ground and put my back up against the door. I watched the water hit the bottom of the shower. I cried even harder. I got in the shower and the water stung my cuts. I got out quickly and shut the water off. I got dressed and opened the bathroom door.
"Are you hungry?" Owen asked.
"No im okay," I said.
"Okay," he said. I wrapped my arms around his waist and cried into his chest. He sat down and wrapped his arms around me. I sobbed for a while.
"Do you want to talk?" He asked.
"I felt powerless," I said.
"I'm so sorry I wasn't there," he said.
"I haven't told anyone this," I said, "it was the man who was looking at us outside."
"Did security get him? Were you questioned?" he asked.
"Right after it happened and yeah," I said.
"Ok," he said.
"I don't wanna go to work for a while," I said.
"That's understandable," he said. I turned the tv on and put my head on his shoulder.
"Can you do me a favor?" I asked.
"Of course I can," he said.
"Can you grab my make up bag in the bathroom?" I asked.
"Yeah," he said. He gave it to me and I looked in the little mirror.
"You think these will go away?" I asked pointing at the little bruises and scars.
"Yes," he said.
"Think I can cover I up with makeup," I said.
"You are beautiful either way," he said.
"Thanks," I said.
I tried covering them up and got frustrated. I locked myself in the bathroom and started crying again.
OWENS POV
Amelia locked herself in the bathroom and I can hear her sobbing. I decided to call Meredith and she was on her way over. She knocked on the trailer door and I let her in.
"Where is she?" She asked.
"Bathroom she locked herself in there about an hour ago," I said. Meredith knocked on the bathroom door.
"Amelia?" She said.
"Go away," Amelia mumbled.
"Amelia," I said.
"Leave me alone," Amelia said again.
"We are here for you," Meredith said.
"Go away!" Amelia yelled. Meredith and I gave up.
"What do we do now?" I asked her.
"We just have to be patient, I know that you're trying to understand but you are never going to," she said.
"I know," I said.
"Do you think she would be into therapy?" she asked.
"I don't know," I said.
"I don't know what to do for her," Meredith said.
"Me either," I said. Amelia came out of the bathroom and Meredith and I stood up.
"I'm going for a walk don't follow me," she said and grabbed her jacket.
"Amelia," I started.
"I want to be alone," she said and left the trailer. Meredith and I sat back down.
"We should follow her," Meredith said.
"Let's go," I said.
AMELIAS POV
I stormed out of the trailer and started walking into the woods. I could feel the tears streaming down my face. I'm so angry and frustrated with myself. I heard something behind me. I turned around and saw nobody. I kept walking and kicking rocks along the way. I heard a noise again and I turned around.
"Owen, I told you not to follow me!" I yelled. Him and Meredith came out behind and tree.
"Amelia we can help you," Meredith said.
"We're here for you," Owen said.
"You don't get it," I said moving closer.
"Amelia were trying," Meredith said.
"You don't get it that this man has made me miserable and I want to die," I said.
"Amelia...." Owen said.
"I WANT TO DIE AND MY ONLY ESCAPE IS TOXIC, MY ONLY ESCAPE FROM THIS IS DRUGS," I yelled. I started sobbing. Owen came and wrapped his arms around me.
"Amelia we can get you through this," Meredith said.
"We are all here for you," Owen said. I sobbed even harder into Owen. He picked me up and I wrapped my arms around his neck. He walked back to the trailer.
"I'm gonna leave you guys alone," I heard Meredith say. She left and Owen and I sat in bed. I was still crying.
"I'm sorry," I said.
"It's okay," he said.
"It's not," I said.
"You're hurting, I just want you to talk to me," he said.
"I don't want to talk about it," I said crying. He held me tightly. I started balling.
"I don't know what to do anymore, I just want it to end," I said.
"We will get you through this, everyone is here for you," he said.
"I'm going to fight it," I said. I turned around and pressed my lips against his. Images flooded back and I started crying and pushed him away.
"I can't do this," I said.