Hidden Feelings

•Chapter 30•

AMELIAS POV
I woke up next to Owen feeling sick. I got up and ran to the bathroom. I started throwing up. I found a pregnancy test under the sink. I took it out of the package and peed on the stick. I don't want to be pregnant with my rapists' child. I was late before it happened. Maybe it's Owen's kid. I was supposed to get my period that day so I don't know. I stared at the test until it was done. It was positive, I was pregnant. I started crying and I hid the test in a drawer. I walked back out into the bedroom and Owen was awake.
"What's up?" He asked.
"Nothing just had to pee," I said.
"Okay," he said. I could tell he was sleepy. I crawled back into bed and waited for him to fall asleep. He fell asleep and I got up. I got dressed and grabbed Owen's truck keys. I scribbled him a note saying I was taking a drive. I drove over to the hospital and met Arizona.
"Amelia!" She said hugging me.
"I need an ultrasound," I said.
"Okay," she said. She put the gel on my stomach and looked at the screen.
"Amelia you're not pregnant," she said.
"What? I took one of those tests," I said.
"Sometimes they are wrong," she said.
"Oh my gosh," I said kinda relieved. I hugged her tightly.
"Thank you for everything," I said.
"You're welcome," she said, "does Owen know you are here?"
"No and that's why I'm leaving thank you," I said.
"Amelia," she paused, "just talk to him."
"I try," I said leaving. I drove home and Owen was awake. I opened the trailer door and he was in the kitchen.
"Where the hell did you go?" He said.
"Out," I said.
"Out? Really Amelia? I've been worried about you all morning!" He said.
"Well I went out it's none of your business!" I yelled.
"I'm trying to understand you and all you do is shut me out what am I supposed to do!" He yelled.
"Leave me alone! That's all I want!" I said slamming the trailer door. I ran up the path crying to Derek's house. I got to their porch and got myself together. I rang the doorbell and Derek answered with Bailey.
"Come in," he said. He put Bailey down and wrapped his arms around me.
"Owen and I were fighting," I started crying.
"It's okay shh," he said hugging me.
"It was bad Derek," I started sobbing.
"You don't have to tell me," he said. Meredith came down the stairs.
"Amelia! What happened?" Meredith said.
"Owen and I were fighting," I cried harder. She rubbed my back as I cried into Derek.
"Aunty Amy what's wrong?" Bailey asked. I squatted down to his level.
"Aunty Amelia is having a poopy day," I said.
"Poopy? That's a potty word!" He said.
"It is a potty word," I said. I got up and I was still crying.
"Can I crash here?" I asked.
"Of course," Meredith and Derek said at the same time.
"Thanks," I said. Derek hugged me again. I hugged him for a while.
"I gotta go to work okay?" He said.
"Okay," I said.
"Would watching the kids make you happy?" He asked.
"Yes I love your kids," I said.
"You'll be okay here all day?" He asked.
"Yes," I said.
"Okay call me if you need anything," he said.
"I will," I said, "and if you see Owen at work tell him I'm fine."
"Okay," he said. Him and Meredith got ready for work and left. I fed the kids breakfast and watched cartoons with them. Owen kept calling and I finally just turned my phone off for good.
OWENS POV
I feel so bad that I yelled at Amelia. I feel so bad. She ran out and I don't know where she is. Maybe she went to the hospital. My shift starts soon so I'll just go in early. I drove in and saw Derek and Meredith in the parking lot.
"Hey have you guys seen Amelia?" I asked.
"She's fine, she's safe," Derek said.
"Can I talk to her? Is she at your house?" I asked.
"Owen, were all trying to help, just let her be right now," Meredith said.
"Fine," I said and walked away.
AMELIAS POV
The kids are really taking my mind off things and I really love it. We decided to play soccer outside with Zola and Bailey, as Ellis played with her toys in the grass. I wasn't very good at soccer but oh well. They've really taken my mind off things and I'm happy right now. I've become depressed and angry the last few days. I brought the kids inside for lunch. We made pizzas and watched TV while they cooked. Ellis got sleepy. I put her down for a nap and ate lunch with the kids.
OWENS POV
I just got home from work and Amelia still wasn't back. I called her again and again and she didn't answer. I got in my truck and drove over to Derek and Meredith's. I knocked on the door and Amelia opened it.
"Uh hi," she said.
"Who is it?" Bailey said running towards the door.
"It's uncle Owen, do you want to say hi?" she asked him.
"Hi!" Bailey said.
"Can I talk to you," I asked her.
"Uh yeah, I'll be right back okay?" She said to the kids. She closed the door behind her and we were on the porch.
"I'm sorry, I have been really hard on you and I hate myself for yelling at you. You have a right to be angry and upset and I'm sorry I haven't been super considerate," I said.
"Do you still love me?" She asked.
"Of course I still love you honey," I said.
"I love you too," she said.
"Will you come home?" I asked.
"Yes," she said, "and I'm tired of being angry."
I wrapped my arms around her and kissed her head. I opened the door and we played with the kids for a while. Amelia looked super happy. She was getting her mind off things. The kids fell asleep with her on the couch. She got up as the kids still slept and wrapped her arms around my waist. She put her head on my chest.
"I don't feel good," she said pushing off me and running to the bathroom. She puked in the toilet. She got up and looked at me. She put her hair into a loose ponytail. She threw up again and sat on the floor.
"Oh my god my head hurts," she said. I sat next to her and she put her head on my shoulder. I put my hand on her leg and she put her hand over mine.
"How long have you felt like this?" I asked.
"I threw up this morning," she said.
"Morning?" I asked.
"I'm not pregnant," she said, "that's where I went this morning. I puked and I freaked out and took a test, it was positive so I freaked even more and went to Arizona. She gave me an ultrasound and turns out the stick was wrong."
"Amelia why don't you come to me and talk to me?" I asked.
"Because I'm scared Owen, I was scared that I was pregnant with a kid who wasn't yours," she said. Tears streamed down her face. I leaned in and kissed her softly. She didn't push me away. She wrapped her arms around my neck and sat there kissing me. She broke the kiss and smiled at me. She gave me another soft kiss and smiled.
"Thank you," she said. I smiled and kissed her cheek. She got up and walked out to the kitchen. I followed her and wrapped my arms around her waist.
AMELIAS POV
I finally kissed Owen. It felt so good. I told him about this morning and I feel like we're good now. We cuddled on the couch and watched the kids sleep. We turned the TV on low and it was starting to get late.
"Aunt Amelia?" Bailey said.
"Yes," I said.
"When are mommy and daddy gonna be home?" He asked.
"Soon buddy," I said.
"Mommy and Daddy?" Zola asked.
"Soon," I said.
"I'm hungry," Bailey said.
"Okay," I said. I picked them both up and made them a snack. I went to go check on Ellis and she was still asleep. Derek opened the front door and the kids ran from the kitchen.
"Hey guys! Did you have a good day?" He asked them. Meredith came in and saw Owen. She walked over to me.
"You guys good now?" She asked.
"Yeah," I said.
"Good," she said.
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Owen and I went back to the trailer. I changed and we cuddled in bed.
"Amelia?" He asked.
"Mhm," I said.
"No more secrets," he said.
"Okay," I said.
"Promise?" He asked.
"Yes," I said.
"Ok," he said. I kissed his cheek and nuzzled into his side. He rubbed my back and kissed my head. I'm starting to feel happier, and I'm starting to get over this.