Hidden Feelings

•Chapter 37•

AMELIAS POV
My alarm went off and I got up. I was thinking about what I wanted to say all night but I know when I see him I'm not going to remember any of it. I got dressed and opened my bedroom door. Meredith was in the kitchen making coffee.
"You're up early," she said.
"Uh yeah, I'm going to go talk to Owen before work," I said. She smiled.
"Good," she said. I grabbed a cup of coffee and started waking to the front door.
"You want a ride?" Meredith asked.
"Nah I'm okay," I said.
"Okay," she said.
"Thanks anyway though," I said.
"Anytime," she said. I walked out the front door and I turned on my phone. I had a million messages from Owen. I made it to the trailer and I could see the bedroom light on. I knocked on the trailer door. He opened it and we both stared at each other.
"I'm sorry I dragged you into all this and you don't deserve it and I'm sorry I keep running and avoiding talking but I love you and you deserve to know what's going on so I'm ready to talk and I know you'll listen," I said quickly.
"You can come in," he laughed. I smiled. We both sat down on the couch and faced each other.
"I should have just told you, and I'm really sorry I didn't because I know you can help," I said.
"It's okay, how long had this been going on, you shouldn't have to go through this alone," he said.
"It's been really hard," my voice broke. He pulled me into a tight hug. I started crying.
"It's okay," he said.
"It all started that night, when I was raped, and I couldn't kiss you, from there on I just felt terribly about myself and it grew on from there," I said quietly.
"And then the other morning," he started.
"Yeah," I said, "then I just felt worse, but please don't think any of this is your fault, because it's not. Without you it would be worse and I'd probably be high somewhere right now."
"Can we tell each other everything now?" He said.
" yes," I said.
"Okay, come here," he said and kissed my cheek.
"So are we okay?" I asked.
"We're okay," he smiled. I smiled back.
"When does your shift start?" He asked.
"Uh 7," I said.
"You're up early," he laughed.
"Yeah well I really wanted to come talk to you and I didn't know when your shift is," I said.
"Mine also starts at 7," he said, "I got up early because I wanted to come talk to you." I smiled and kissed him softly. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer to me. He wrapped his arms around my waist. We laid down on the couch and talked for a while. It felt good to get all that off my chest. I started getting really tired and it was 6:45.
"Ugh I'm so tired," I laughed.
"It was worth it getting up early," he said.
"Yeah it was," I said.
"So are you coming home?" He asked.
"Yes," I said.
"Good," he said and kissed my head.
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Work was good. I'd don't lose any patients and Owen stopped by a bunch of times which made me really happy. I still feel really bad about everything I've put Owen through. I'll make it up to him tonight. I saw Owen pass by and I grabbed his arm.
"Hey," I said.
"Hi," he said.
"Wanna go out tonight?" I asked.
"Yeah sure," he said.
"Okay," I smiled.
"I like that smile, use it more often," he said and kissed my cheek.
"Thanks," I said. He put his arm around me as we walked down the hall. We got in the elevator and I kissed his cheek.
"I love you," I said.
"I love you too," he said. I nuzzled into him and the doors opened. We went our separate was and I smiled back at him.
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I got home before Owen and I showered. I heard him open the trailer door.
"Hey," I yelled from the bathroom.
"Hi," he yelled back.
"I'll be out in a minute," I yelled.
"Take your time," he yelled. I got out and picked up the black dress I picked out. It was cute. I put it on and looked in the mirror.
"Owen!" I called. He came in and he smiled.
"Like?" I smiled.
"You're hot," he said and kissed me softly. I giggled and wrapped my arms around him. I let him get ready. I sat on the couch and went on my phone for a while. Owen came out and he was so hot. I got up and kissed his cheek.
"You're pretty hot yourself," I said. He smiled and kissed me softly.
"We clean up nicely," he laughed.
"We do indeed," I laughed. We walked to the truck and I kissed his cheek when he got in.
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Dinner was great. Owen made me laugh so much and I love him. He makes me so happy. We payed and walked out to the truck. In the parking lot he put his arm around me and kissed me softly. We both smiled at each other and I felt genuinely happy.
"Thank you," I said, "for making me happy."
"And thank you for making me happy," he said and kissed me again. We drove home and Owen looked really tired.
"Tired?" I laughed.
"Yeah long work day," he said and kissed my cheek. We changed and he laid in bed. I walked into the kitchen and made coffee.
"Do you want some?" I asked.
"No," he said.
"Okay," I said. I grabbed a cup and sat down next to him.
"Can I tell you something?" I asked.
"Of course," he said sitting up.
"Tomorrow my baby boy would have been seven," I said. He put his arm around me and I cried into his chest. I hugged him tightly as I cried. He kissed my head softly a bunch of times. I sat up and looked at him. He ran his thumb over my cheek and I leaned in and kissed him passionately.
"I love you," I said.
"I love you too," he said.