At seven in the morning my alarm went off and I woke Juju up so that she could get ready for school. After she was dressed and in the kitchen eating her breakfast, I went to shower and talk to Quan.
He was gone. There were no signs of him being in the apartment. I felt bad for saying what I did and I really wanted to apologize to him. I figured that I could just do it when I dropped Juju off.
When I dropped her off at her classroom I stopped past his classroom but I saw there was a substitute teacher and realized that he had called out. Probably to avoid me so I would just try him later.
Since there was no shop to go to, I decided to go to my parents' house. Using my key to enter I stepped foot in the house. It was quiet but I knew that they were awake. I headed up the stairs and to their bedroom.
Not wanting a repeat of what happened at my mom's hair salon, I was going to knock and wait for them to invite me in.
"We know it's you Siani." My mom said. "Come in."
I laughed slightly and entered the room. "Hi." I mumbled before kicking my shoes off and climbing up in their California King and getting in between them.
"How are you feeling?" My mom asked, pushing my hair back from my face.
"My shop just burned down, how am I supposed to feel?"
"Well I don't know which is why I asked."
I didn't say anything for a moment and neither did they.
"I think Quan is mad with me." I admitted. "He said that he could take care of me and Juju but I kind of told him that he can't afford to do that on a teacher's salary."
"Why would you say that?" My mom wanted to know.
"I don't know. I didn't really mean to say it but I was angry." I sighed before looking at my dad. "What should I do?"
I didn't want to ask my mom because she wasn't a man and I was sure that my dad could give me better advice for this.
"Apologize." He said.
"He should know that I didn't really mean it though."
"Should he really?"
I looked down at my hands. "No."
"Baby girl, listen to me. I know you're upset and going through it but that boy has been about you since forever. From the day I met you, he was around up until the day you left South Carolina and you guys didn't speak- which I am sure was mainly your fault. With those words you said, you made it seem as if he is incapable of taking care of you. As a man, we don't want to hear something like that."
"I didn't-"
"Let me finish. Quan loves you and he loves your daughter and we all know she loves him too. If he didn't and couldn't take care of you two then he would have never brought it up. Not only that but he wouldn't be in a relationship with you." He told me. "You guys may progress to marriage and as a husband it will be his job to provide for you and the kids. Don't knock him down like that especially when he does all that he does for the two of you."
I sighed heavily. "You're right."
"He loves you, you know."
"I know that Dad and I love him too. I just wish I had done things differently when we were younger. I probably wouldn't even have Juju though."
"Yeah, that baby would've been a little Ja'Quana." My mom laughed making me stale face her because she wasn't even funny. "Okay. I'm sorry."
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