"Babe," I moaned. "It hurts so bad." I grabbed his hand as another contraction hit.
"I know baby but you're doing so well." He kissed my forehead. "Just think about the fact that he's almost here."
"I don't care, tell them to come cut me open. This isn't fair, I've been in labor almost two damn days."
I couldn't take this pain that I was in. This labor was completely different from when I birthed Juju. Juju literally popped out with little to no pain but this little boy was killing me slowly.
Quan, my parents and his mom were in the room with us until it was time to push then it would just be the two of us. I wanted us to have this moment together with nobody else.
The past two weeks, things between us had gotten better. His ex-wife came and signed the paperwork to officially be done. Quan and I had decided to wait on filling out and paying for another marriage certificate. We were focusing on the birth of our son and didn't want to put our personal issues with one another in the mix.
"Baby, they can't cut you open."
"Yes they can and they will." I cried. "I don't want to have him natural anymore. Get me some drugs."
"Girl if you don't stop being dramatic." My mom sighed making me cut my eyes at her.
I was about to kick her out but another contraction stopped me. "That's it!" I yelled. "Call the fucking nurse and doctor. They have to do something."
"I love you." Quan kissed the back of my hand that he was holding, ignoring what I said.
"I love you too but I want you to know that when this is all over, it's not happening again. I refuse."
"What are you talking about Si." He laughed.
"Tell them to tie my tubes." I threw my head back. "Why does this hurt so bad? It wasn't like this with Juju."
Just then the doctor walked in. "Okay Siani, I'm going to check you once again. I feel like it may be time." She smiled at me and I just plainly stared at her. She wasn't my original doctor so I didn't care what she felt.
"If I'm not a full ten then just cut me open and get this baby out."
"Dramatic." My mom mumbled.
"Be quiet because I'm sure you were the same way." My dad told her.
"Well, you're almost there." Doctor Sanders said while pulling her gloves off. "Judging by your contractions you'll be ready to push within the next half hour I'd say."
"Fuck." I whispered. "How can I get ready faster? I'm hungry, hot, sweaty, hungry, I need some weed, sleepy, hungry."
"Alright Siani." My dad glared at me.
I rolled my eyes before glancing over at Quan's mom who was in the chair fast asleep. I knew she was tired from her shift at the hospital and I was jealous because I wanted that sleep.
"You can sleep after this is over." Quan said as if he had read my mind.
I closed my eyes but they shot back open as I felt the pain of the contraction. "Ugh, I feel like I have to shit." I groaned.
"That means one thing." My mom said. "You're probably fully dilated and ready to push."
I pressed the button for the nurse who immediately came in. "I think it's time." I told her. "It's either that or I have to go to the bathroom but I think it's time."
The nurse checked and I watched her eyes become wide before she rushed out to get Doctor Sanders.
"What's going on? Why'd she look like that? Mom, look down there and see what's happening!" I felt myself begin to panic.
