Wanting a life change! Book One

MAKING A DECISION

Bpov

    I was standing next to my locker waiting for my next class to begin. I didn't have any friends at all, so my life was pretty much boring and eventful at school.

My name is Isabella Marie Swan but I prefer to be called Bella. I did have a very good friend a long time ago though. But he died a long time ago. I don't remember everything from what happen though. The doctor told my parents I had amnesia. I remember bits and pieces of growing up and of camp but that's it.

    It's early in the day and I dreaded it every day I came here to school. It's been my own personal hell since I was little. See I have been bullied ever since I was little and my 2 biggest bullies are Victoria and James.

They grew up with me in school. They would beat me up for my lunch money or dump my lunch on my head or call me names and etc. They even had a group of kids that would do there dirty work for them sometimes.

Sure they beat up on other kids but mainly they beat up on me. I really don't know why either.

In the first grade I told my mother about it. But it only made it worse and so I kept it to myself now.

   The bell finally ring and I started walking and something hit my leg and I went flying down to the ground. My books scattered everywhere.
This is just great.

I'm  already accident prone enough without their help and now on top of everything else I'm going to be late for class yet again.

I heard them behind me laughing. I turned my head and looked at who it was.

I should've known it was Victoria, James and their gang. For the last four months they been acting worse and plus they all wore sunglasses now!

The only time I got peace from them is when I'm at home or they were gone a whole month for some reason.

"Hey Bella, you really shouldn't be so clumsy." Victoria said to me. "Bella I don't even know why you come to school. No one likes you here. You'll never have a boyfriend. Look at you. You're so damn ugly!" I fought back the tears that threaten to escape.

  I picked up my books and just walk to class ignoring them. I held everything back until I could get home to go to my room and lock myself in.

No one knows my hell I live through every single day. I can't wait for fourth period art class. I get to express my thoughts in my drawings or my paintings. In seventh period I have creative writing and I get express my feelings in my stories or my essays in that class.
 
  Eighth period is gym and Victoria and James are in that class with me we were playing baseball right now. I didn't get pick thank god.

So I go and sit on the bench. As I was walking to the benches the next thing I knew at full force the ball hit my shoulder. I turned and looked to see who hit me. I figured out who it was because they had grins on their faces and it was Victoria and James!

  We were back inside the locker room changing when I heard. "Hey, Bella Swan! You know I love making your life a living hell don't you? I will spend the rest of my life making sure you know that you're ugly and no one will ever love you or want to be with your ugly ass and they know who you truly are. A ugly monster!" I got up and walked out. I needed to get home.

"Bella this isn't over for you!" Victoria said as I kept walking. I left school grounds walking home.

  I have to figure this out how to get out of this hell hole I'm in. I hate it here! There right though. No one will ever date me or give a second look at me.

I hate looking in mirrors at myself. I don't wear makeup at all and I don't do nothing special with my hair. I rather wear t-shirts, hoodies, jeans, and tennis shoes. Put my hair up in a ponytail and wear a baseball cap.