Wanting a life change! Book One

FINDING OUT EDWARD GONE.

bpov

Well I woke up finding myself thinking about Edward Cullen. I don't know why he acted like that.

When Mike told me that Edward Cullen never acted like that with anyone else before it made me feel awful. Then when I went to the office. He tried to switch classes, it was all because of me. what's wrong with me. I wiped the tears that started to fall from my eyes.

I got up and got dressed. I went into the bathroom and I checked my wound and decided to try and just go with just a bandaid on it.

I put my hair in a ponytail. I looked in the mirror at myself. l came to a decision. I came here for a change, a new life. I'll just talk to him during biology class and ask him why he acted like that to me and what I did wrong and maybe fix it somehow.

I ran out the door and hopped in the truck and drove off to school. I pulled into the parking lot. As I got out, Angela called out to me. I walked over to her.

"Bella this is Lauren." I said hi to her. I decided to hang out with Angela today.

Angela and I started walking to English class and Tyler walks up beside us and scares me.

"Hey, Bella!" Then kisses me on the cheek. I just blush. I look over at Angela and say. "He really got to stop doing that." We both giggled. We walked into English class and sat in our seat.

I was in lunch now and I was in line. I looked over to the Cullen table and notice Edward Cullen wasn't there. I didn't think much of it at the time.

I paid for my lunch. "Hey, Arizona over here." I walked over and sat next to Angela. For some reason Mike sat down on the other side of me. It made me think of what Jessica told me.

I just can't figure out why she would think I'm the problem. She is right about one thing though I'm not pretty!

I stopped at the rest room before going to biology class and Lauren and Jessica were standing there. That's just great there goes my day I thought.

"Bella, this is your last warning. Stay away from Mike and Tyler or else." I just look at them confused.

"I don't know why you guys are being like this to me. But I am not doing nothing wrong."

All of a sudden I'm being backed into the wall by Lauren. She leans forward with one hand on the wall and she only inches away from my face.

"Bella, just watch yourself because if you don't, your ugly ass is going to be messed up. So I suggest bitch you stay away from Mike and Tyler.

I moved away from Lauren as fast as I could and walked out of the bathroom. I headed to biology class because I had to talk to Edward Cullen. I had to put what just happen in the back of my mind.

I walked in and when I looked at our table he wasn't sitting there.

What did I do so wrong? Why is this happening to me again? I didn't understand none of this. I didn't even understand why I care so much for one person I never even talked to.

School is out, and I raced out to my truck and went straight home. I ran to my spot.

As I slid down the tree I yelled out. "WHY DOES IT ALWAYS HAVE TO HAPPEN TO ME DAMN IT?" I started crying. No matter where I go it always happens to me. What am I a magnet for it. What did I do or what is it about me that scared Edward Cullen away.

My cell phone rings and it was Charlie. Did he come home early? "Hey Bells can you meet at 7 at the cafe. I have to work late."

"Sure dad, is everything okay?" It was quiet for minute. " I'll explain at dinner." I said ok.

I started thinking about Edward Cullen again and what is it about me that makes him not want to be around me.

I already knew I was ugly and I'm accident prone. At this point I knew people were going to be mean to me no matter where I go. But on the bright side of this to I have friends now. Where I didn't in Arizona.

I gotten up before it got to much later. I went in the house to get ready to meet Charlie at the cafe.

I got into the truck and drove to the cafe. Charlie's cruiser wasn't there yet. When I walked in the waitress said, "Hey Bella, your dad called and said he going to be a little late." She brought over a coke for me to drink while I waited for Charlie.

"Sorry I'm late Bells. Just lots been happening at work and the county over."

"Is everything okay dad, what's going on?" We pause to order our food.

"Well there's been some murders in the next county over and the town south of here."

"Dad you don't think there coming this way do you?"

"I sure hope not . Boy I sure hope not!" Charlie just put his head down and shook it back and forth. We finished eating and headed home.

"Bells I'll probably be working late for a few days can you handle things around here on your own?"

"Yeah sure dad, don't worry about me I'm safe. I have a father that's a chief of police." I had a big grin on my face. "Alright Bells, you're just being a smart ass. But I get the point." We both started laughing.

"I'm going to go take a shower and head off to bed now dad night."

"Night, Bells." After my shower, I decided to scoot grandma Swan's rocking chair in front of the window and just look up to the stars for awhile.

I was thinking about Edward Cullen again. I was the one that scared him away by how ugly I am. I just wish I knew how to fix this. For some reason he was always on my mind and all I do is think about him.

I wiped the tears from my eyes. I couldn't understand why I cared so much either but I do. It was strange I don't even know him and I already care about him.

I started remembering also what Jessica and Lauren said to but could not figure it out. Then I started to think about Edward Cullen again. From the first time he walked into the cafeteria, until the last time I saw him by his car.
I thought about how his eyes were black when I sat next to him. I don't know why he covered his nose and mouth when I walked by the fan. I started to cry again. I don't get it. I should be more upset with what Jessica and Lauren said to me. But for some strange reason I wasn't.

I really wanted to talk to Edward, but now he's gone because of me. Maybe he will be there tomorrow. I could only hope he was.

I looked back up to the night sky again just wishing and hoping that Edward would come back so I could fix this.

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