Misery Business (Sequel to Never Let This Go) *Paramore*

Chapter Three: Decisions

I recommend for you to get your tissue box better reading.

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Hayley's P.O.V.

As soon as Taylor rings the bell, I get up from the table and open the door to him with a fake smile. "Hey," I greet him trying not to act like everything is going wrong no matter how true it is.

"Hey, so what did you want to talk about?" he asks as I shut the door.

"One second," I tell him. I open the article from my laptop and hand it to him as we sit on the couch. As he reads it he looks more and more nervous, his eyes getting bigger and bigger by the sentence. Once finished, he slowly sets the laptop on the coffee table and looks at me sympathetically. We all know how much I appreciate sympathy from people. I think he is more shocked than anything, hence the silence from him. "Taylor, do you think that...that being together is...bad?" I ask him barely audible.

I am honestly confused about why it matters so much that I'm not with Taylor to Angela. I mean, yes I understand that if I was with Chad, she could hurt him more, being the main target. Being with Taylor though, she can hurt me. If she hurts me then the kind part of Chad I know will be hurt because I know he doesn't want to hurt me, despite what he said a little while back to my face. Maybe Angela just wants to hurt him more directly. "Do you think that?" Taylor asks looking confused.

That is the one question that I know I need to answer, but I don't honestly know myself what I believe anymore. Is our relationship bad for this whole mess? I mean, considering he is the one who kept me as strong as I could get in the situation, I don't think being a couple is bad for us, but it's bad for Angela. She is the main person who wants us to break up. She doesn't want us to protect each other. Angela knows that without Taylor, I am weak and vulnerable because he was the only shield I had. The thing is, is that I was selfish and desperate enough to use him as a shield, instead of helping him.

"A little," I respond. It's the only thing I can really understand myself. Our relationship, in this situation, is a little bit bad for us. The darkness can only grow, though.

"What are you saying?" he asks me. "Is it just because the picture that was leaked? Or was it Angela?"

"Everything, T," I whisper trying to hold back my tears; it isn't easy though. I have been broken so much that it hurts to say what I feel, no matter what it may be. If I have to say it, I have to say it. I know that this problem can't be buried with the rest of the broken pieces of glass, because it doesn't fit the puzzle. This needs to be solved, no matter how much it hurts and this is the only way we can solve the puzzle, even if the edges are sharp.

"Hayles we can figure this out," Taylor explains to me sounding worried about whatever it is I might say.

"Taylor, you've done so much for me, you know that. All of the nights it took hours to fall asleep, all of the times I was weaker than a sick infant...you helped me out. I was attacked by your ex-girlfriend, and yet you stayed the whole time just because of a couple cuts and bruises. I cut up my own skin, and starved myself yet you didn't leave. I ran away and you followed with Jeremy and Kat. Taylor I was put in a mental institution for four days and you waited for me. Not to mention all of the mental breakdowns, bad attitudes, drama, and selfishness yet here you are. Taylor, I tried to kill myself and you haven't run away. All of the pain, wounds, mental and physical, anger, darkness, and illness and here we are. I didn't do anything for you so why do you even love me?" I ask him honestly. At this point I'm in tears.

"Do you remember when we wrote our first song together? When we spent months touring with the band? All of the moments we got completely lost in the music on stage, and we let all of the emotions fall onto the stage? Forget everything else. That is something we love more than anything, I know that for a fact. Hayley, I've known you for half my life, and here we are. Why are we pushing on such dark moments when there are so many more great ones, anyway? What happened to your smile, and the way your eyes light up over the simplest things? That is the Hayley I fell in love with, not this one. I know that the old Hayley is in you deep down, you just need a little more time to find it and those memories we share," he explains to me quietly. I wipe a tear away and give a small smile.

"That can't change what happened in the past two months," I tell him softly. "I'm never going to be able to be the same person,"

"Neither am I, but we can always find a way to get through it," T responds wiping a tear away for me with his thumb.

"Not if the whole world is looking at leaked photos taken out of context," I say honestly. I believe it to be true, as well. How are we suppose to move on when society is throwing lies into our faces? "I don't think we should be so public about...us,"

"What are you saying?" he asks me. I'm forever going to regret doing what I'm about to do, but this is truly something that needs to be done, no matter what Angela expects me to do for or against her sorry ass.

"I'm saying that I think we should stop seeing each other," I say barely able to hear it myself. Taylor wipes his own tear away and stands up from the couch. "I'm sorry,"

"I understand," he tells me walking toward the door. I pull my knees up to my chin and cry a little more than before, as I watch the love of my life walk straight out of my door, not looking back.

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Whoops did I do that?

Sorry I'm in a really depressing mood right now.

Do you think that's why the photo got out?

What will happen when they start to tour together?

Will things get better or worse from here?

How will Jeremy and Kat react?

Was explaining to the public what happened a good or bad idea?

Will Taylor and Hayley get back together, or not?

Will Fall Out Boy be dragged into the mess?

How will Hayley do without Taylor to hold her together?