Alone

Chapter 13

Mabel's POV

I had hoped and hoped that he would leave me alone for one night. One night was all I asked for. But obviously, that was too much to hope for.

That night he endlessly raped me. He raped me, then he beat me, then he raped me again. It was an endless cycle. Even after I fell asleep, he continued to torment me in the dream world. I couldn't get away from him.

I thought that would just be a one-night thing because he was angry for some reason. But no. It happened at least once a week now, but it was usually more. The day our birthday rolled around, I barely even left my room. I stopped caring if people thought I was getting worse. It was obvious that Bill wasn't doing anything to help me convince them.

He would yell at me from time to time about 'making them believe I was okay' but I ignored him. He didn't really do anything he wasn't already doing when he wasn't mad, so I stopped caring about the rapes and the beating.

My parents and Dipper tried to check on me, but I usually wouldn't let them in. It was also getting increasingly harder to convince my mom not to take me to the doctor. She did get me anxiety medication, but Bill wouldn't let me take it. I probably would have just used the pills to OD, but he wouldn't let me do that either. I became used to it, him controlling my life. I didn't care anymore.

When school started, I only went for a day before I refused to go. I was having a hard enough time thinking without Bill screwing up my thoughts or beating me for saying the wrong thing again. When I stopped going to school, my mom finally took me to the doctors. Bill was telling me what to say to them so I could get out of there quicker. All they did was prescribe more medication, which I couldn't take because of him.

Each day seemed to drone on. I hated every part of it. Bill haunted me every second of every day. He was in my head, in my dreams, he knew what I feared, which was him. He controlled my life and I couldn't do anything but let him.

I didn't know what to do. There was nothing I could do. There wasn't even anything left that I could hope for.

Or so I thought.

"Hey, Mabel?" Dipper knocked on my door knob

"Yeah?" I slowly got out of bed to try to get him to go away.

"We're leaving tomorrow, you should probably start packing." Huh?

"Wait, what? Leaving for where?"

"For Gravity Falls. You're still going, right?"

"Y-yes!" I nearly jumped up in the air. "I'm defiantly going!"

"Okay," he sounded happy, probably since I sounded happy. "Start packing then."

"Got it." I turned around started going thoroughly clothes, throwing them in a bag. The smile on my face stretched from one cheek to the other. I couldn't believe I'm finally getting to go back there! I couldn't believe I'd actually forgotten about it. I mentally face palmed at forgetting about the one thing that I've been wanting to do.

"I'm glad you're excited." My face fell when I heard his voice. I turned around to meet his smirking face.

"Y-you're going to let me go, right?" I was practically shaking knowing he could take the last thing I had, the last thing I wanted away from me.

"Sure, why not." I stared at him, wondering why he wasn't trying to ruin the one thing that was going to make me happy. "Maybe because I'm bored." He laughed after answering my thoughts. "Beating you daily isn't eternal fun." I looked away from him. "Aww, don't be like that Star." He laughed then left me alone. I took a shaky breath and went back to packing. When I was finished, I ran downstair with my suitcase. When I got down there, I saw my mom and dad talking.

"Hey, Mabel. Can you come here a minute so we can talk to you."

"Yeah." I put my suitcase down and walked over to them.

"Your dad and I have been talking, and we don't think it's such a good idea for you to go back to Gravity Falls. You're just not in the best mental state right now." My face fell. Then, of course, Bill showed up.

"If you don't go to Gravity Falls this summer I will make your life as miserable as Hell. Got it!" I wondered why he was so bent on me going there, but I ignored it.

"No! You can't! I need to go!"

"Why is that?"

"Because its the one thing I've been looking forward to and you can't take that away and-"

"Hey, whats going on?" Dipper started walking down stairs.

"We don't want Mabel going down to Gravity Falls."

"No, she has to!" No doubt he's been talking to Ford about 'curing' me. "That's the place she was happiest a couple years ago, so I think it would be great if she could go back."

"But Dipper, she's not okay right now." She said the last part quieter, but I could still completely hear her.

"I'll take care of her, I promise." He put an arm around me and I flinched at his touch.

"Alright," My mom sighed. "But you need to promise me you two will look after each other." She said 'you two' but she was looking at Dipper.

"I promise," Dipper confidently responded. I remained silent.

"Okay, then I guess you can go."

"Thank you, mom." I smiled then Bill told me to leave so I ran back upstairs.

"Lucky your brother saved you, huh?" He said bitterly. I didn't respond. "Well, this works for everyone then, doesn't it." I looked at him. I still couldn't figure out why he wanted to go back to Gravity Falls so badly, but I didn't care. As long as I could go back there, I would be okay.