Hate to like self promo but like y'all should check out my new book called Messy. I really like it and would love if y'all checked it out. ❤️ okay and p.s this isn't the last part😉
I unlocked the front door quietly, hoping that he would be sleeping so I didn't have to talk to him yet. I walked in and sighed. Walking in my house felt different. All I could picture was Jonathan and Mitch making out and throwing all their clothes on the floor as they made it back to Mitch's room.
At least they did it in Mitch's room right? Now I don't have to wash my sheets and sleep on the couch. I took my shoes off and was about to tip toe up the stairs but I stopped when I saw him standing at the bottom of the stairs.
"You're home early." He said so quietly I barely heard him. I dropped my bag down and gulped. I couldn't bring myself to run over to him. I knew I wanted to really bad but I couldn't bring myself to do it.
"Yeah." I whispered and he started to cautiously walk towards me. It was surprisingly hard to not move away from him. I didn't want his affection after what happened even though it wasn't necessarily his fault.
He stopped a few feet away looking like he might cry. "Wow," he chuckled sadly, "I really fucked up haven't I? You don't even want to touch me."
I looked down fidgeting with my fingers, "I'm sorry." I whispered and he frowned shaking his head and wiping a few tears that had slipped through.
"No no, don't apologize. Don't ever apologize for protecting yourself. I deserve all I get and worse." He said and shifted awkwardly before looking up at him.
"I... do you even still want to be with me?" His voice cracked and I almost flinched at the words. I shook my head and immediately walked up to him pulling him into my arms.
He wrapped his small arms around my waist and I squeezed him tight. He buried his face into my shirt and squeezed me back tightly. "I love you so much. I'm so sorry. Please don't leave me. I can't handle that. I can't! I know I fucked everything up but I need you! I can't live without you and I'm so sorry." He was sobbing in my chest and honestly it was more heartbreaking than what he did.
"Shhh," I whispered and kissed the top of his head, "Baby breathe for me okay?" I whispered rubbing his back. I tried to pull away slightly to look at him but he had me in a death grip like he was afraid that if I let go I would disappear.
"Mitchie look at me." I said gently lifting up his chin. "No matter what you do. No matter what happens I will never leave you. There will be no situation where I ever leave you because I need you Mitch. It's like I fucking need you to breathe. You know how shitty that is? When you feel that way about someone and they go and they rip your heart out? But you can't do anything about it because you're so dependent on them that you literally can't live without them! You don't ever have to worry about me leaving you but I have to worry about you leaving me."
"Scott no you don't! I will never leave you-" I cut him off pulling away entirely.
"You slept with someone else Mitch!" I yelled not caring that it was well after 11 PM. That shut him up real quick and tears filled in his eyes.
"Look," I sighed, "you apologized and I forgave you but that doesn't mean I don't have to worry about you leaving. That doesn't mean that I trust that if I leave you alone again and you get drunk that you won't sleep with someone else."
He nodded and wiped a few tears, "I'm gonna prove it to you." He said and I looked up at him.
"I hope you do." I whispered before picking up my back again, "I'm gonna get some rest, I didn't sleep very well last night. Umm, I just... wanna be alone tonight. Okay?"
