Punk Direction (niall Horan Love Story)

-Chapter 34:

love you too!" He said and I smiled "You understand that I am like this..." He pulled away to look at my eyes "...I have tattoos because of what happened! I'm fucked up Johanna and..." I cut him off

"You're not ... what you said!" I said "You just had troubles in your life, it's not like it's going to define who you are!" I explained and felt his grip on me tightening "Are you going to let them?" I asked

Niall looked at me with widened eyes. The blue eyes I loved so much were now trembling. What was he? Afraid I was going to leave him? I won't! I love him to pieces, and he didn't killed anybody, it was an accident. She chose to be in the car with him, she knew he was drunk, summing everything up, she was a crazy ass bitch. Yes, I called her a bitch.

I mean, who the hell do you think you are to like, almost rape him. He didn't knew what he was doing. I bet that he wouldn't do it if he was sober. She was the one who started all this things. I hate how her memory killed James and Niall's soul. I saw it returning to him... slowly, but still, it returned! I like to think the cute Niall is the Niall before Mia...

"I killed her, why don't you hate me?" He asked me

My eyes softened on his. I wanted nothing but hug him and comfort him till he realized it wasn't his fault. He didn't kill her. I smiled weakly

"You didn't killed her Niall, it was an accident!" I explained "And I could never hate you because... I love you... Okay this sounded better in my head!" I frowned, getting a laugh from him.

This is the Niall I love and adore, the one who laughs, the one who's able to light up a room just with his presence, not the scary, big Niall. I like that one two, I like the two personalities he has, but I like the cute one better. I leaned and kissed his soft pink lips.

"I just need you to forget all these things!" He said "I need you, by my side, always! Only now I remember why I used to go out every night to get laid. I never understood how lonely I was, even if it was always in front of me. I was searching for you!" He kissed my lips.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him more to me. His hands held my waist, pulling me up so my legs would eventually surround his waist. I did, and pulled him more to me. He took two steps back and my back immediately hit the mattress. I took one hand to his neck and pushed myself more up.

"I need you Johanna!" He said, resting his forehead against my cheek "I need you so much!"

"Then have me!" I said and he widened his eyes, pulling back to look at me in the eyes

"No! I'm not gonna 'have you' when I just told you this!" He shook his head negatively

"But..." He kissed me, preventing me from talking more.

"I want you, but not that way ... yet!" He said and smiled.

I pouted and he laughed. I confess, I only pouted to make him laugh. I love his laugh, how good and just... gorgeous it is. He bit his lower lip when he looked at me and I swallowed.

"What are you thinking?" I asked nervously

"You know I didn't use you right?" He asked and I swallowed

"Right!" I said

I understand he has his secrets, but I also know he's not using me. Only a few people know about this, and I'm glad he trusted me enough to tell me. I know he loves me, I just think I'm insecure, I mean, I still don't know why he's with me. Of course he explained to me, but I'm starting to think I'm clingy. What if he decides to leave me? What if he gets tired of me?

"I can't have enough of you!" He whispered and regained my attention

He smiled, still biting his lip and I felt myself blushing. Oh God! His hands made the shape of my body before he got to my thighs. He rubbed his hands up and down while his lips slowly made their way down my neck. What the hell was he doing to me? I'm totally different than I was a few months ago.