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Chapter 45

I sat on the bed in stunned silence. I didn't think he would have proposed tonight; that was the last thing on my mind. It was so sudden. But despite all that, I knew it was right; there was no other way I could see our life progressing. This was the honest next step for him and me.

Jace was waiting for my answer but as the seconds ticked by without it, his smile slowly fell. I suddenly realized that he thought I was going to say no. For him, my silence could only mean one thing. But I could never say no to him. I loved him more than anything or anyone. I needed to get out of my own head and give this man what he needed. Smiling, I gave Jace the answer he needed and desperately wanted. "Yes," I cried, flinging myself into his arms and nearly knocking him backward onto the floor.

"Really?" he whispered, in complete and total shock. He really had expected me to say no, I thought. He still doubted our love, even now as he was proposing to me.

"Yes!" I moaned, "A thousand times yes. Why would you even have to ask that? You know that I love you. How can you even think that I'd say no?" I asked, pulling away and looking him in the eyes, willing him to understand.

"Because, you deserve so much better than me. You don't deserve to have someone who can never be there for you when you need him most. Someone, who, at a moment's notice can be called out to work and could die. It's part of the job description," he cried.

"Hey..." I grabbed his face in both my hands. He was trying to tell me I should say no but that was never going to happen. There was nothing that he could do or say that would convince me that he was wrong for me. "We've gotten through it before, and we can do it again. J, I'm so proud of you; of what you're doing. I came to terms with your career choice a long time ago. And we do deserve each other. Yeah, I mean, sure, I miss you when you're gone but I think Wow, my boyfriend is out there fighting for his country. Jason, I want to spend the rest of my life with you, no matter what kind of life we'll have." I cried, tears sliding down my cheek. "You're it for me Jace, no one else. You!"

He laughed lightly and with tears sliding down his face, gently grabbed my left hand and slid the ring onto my ring finger. It suddenly struck me that he was mine and I was his. No one could change that. We belonged together. It must have struck him at the same time because we lunged at each other. His body pressed me down onto the bed and his mouth was fervent on mine. I latched onto him, wrapping my arms around him and pulling his body even closer to mine. Nothing was close enough for me. I wanted to crawl inside his body, his heart, and take up residence.

"Is it just me or does it seem like there are too many clothes in the way?" Jace panted, trailing his lips along my neck.

I nodded in eager agreement. Jason pulled me up into a sitting position on his lap. We were nose to nose as we slowly undressed the other. As I slid his shirt over his head, I trailed my fingers over his chest and around his back, and down the back of his pants. Jace moaned low in the back of his throat and laid me back on the bed. He stood over me and let his eyes trail over my body. My skin pebbled under his intensive gaze. Jace pulled off his pants and underwear in one graceful sweep and my eyes automatically took notice. I reveled in his perfectly sculpted body; it had been so long since I had seen it. He was absolutely perfect in every way. His chest was carved by a rigid six pack, with the slightest trace of his happy trail. My eyes had trouble deciding on a spot to focus on because every part of him begged for my eyes. So I took my time taking him in. I let my eyes start at his feet, trailing up over his powerful thighs, the muscles gently flexing. His impressive cock stood straight and rigid and my mouth watered. Fuck, had it gotten bigger? I thought on an internal laugh. I had to tear my eyes away from it because now my staring was getting a little awkward.

Jace smiled and followed my gaze down. "It missed you too, baby," he laughed gently, walking towards me. He let his body slither on top of mine and I reached out for his hand, letting my fingers tenderly skim over the tattoo on his wrist, the key that matched the lock on the small of my back. My name tattooed over his heart, mirroring his name on my left hip was where my lips landed and I heard him inhale sharply. He was incredibly perfect; way too perfect for me.

Jace sprang into action, unable to hold back any longer. His fingers hastily undid the button and zipper on my jeans, pulling them off my body along with my panties and throwing them to the floor. Jace crawled back on top of me, pressing his lips to his name on my hip and trailing kisses over my chest, taking my shirt off as his mouth rose higher and higher. He continued kissing my shoulder, neck and finally came to rest on my lips. He slid into me on one perfect thrust and I cried out in relief. We fell into each other, our bodies moving perfectly in sync. My hips rose to meet his, my body curved to meet his. I was lost in the sensations of his hands all over my body. I moaned as I felt his lips latch onto my breast. I had missed the feel of him against me, our bare skin in constant contact, so much that it was almost painful. Our lovemaking was frenzied but transitioned into slow and unhurried.

Having him back, I was reminded just how much I had missed him. It mademe all the more frantic to be with him. Our lips and hands explored eachother's bodies, pulling ourselves closer into each other. We melted into eachother so deep that there was no way we could dig ourselves out; but I didn'twant to. Jason Fields and I wereentwined together, forever. Once and for all.