Twitter II || 5SOS

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my eyes scan over the small phone screen as i quickly read over everything on it. my fingers scroll through my contacts as i search for a specific person. a person i haven't talked to in forever. ok, maybe it was just a week, but it feels the same.

it only takes her just a few seconds to answer but just that makes me smile.

"hana!" her screams make me have to separate the phone from my ear. "you called!"

"um, yeah," i say, my eyebrows furrowing. "you told me to."

"oh yeah," she says and laughs. "well how are the boys?"

"they miss you, but i mean you could just walk over."

"apart from the fact that i'm too lazy to."

"just get your butt over here."

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"can you believe how far we've come? just last august we were fangirling over our all time favorite boyband, and expressing how much we need to meet. and now we have met, we are getting tagged in things by them, hanging out with them, and you have even dated a member of our favorite band!"

"yeah," i say, nodding my head. "i think about that all the time."

"it's just weird," she says, "and even more weird that one of them are sitting next to us sleeping."

"nah," i say, poking his cheek. "he's listening to us. aren't you lucas?"

"no," he says before slapping his hand over his face. "fuck."

"me," maya coughs, and i high five her as luke just looks at us.

"i mean don't think i wouldn't." maya's eyes widen as she actually starts to cough.

"don't do that ever again, hemmings."

"wouldn't if i could try."

i stare at the ground as i try to ignore them, but thankfully stop once the door opens and in comes calum and ashton. i am quickly to get onto my feet and follow them into the kitchen as they continue to talk about this is that.

i sit down next to them and play on my phone as they continue to talk. i take a ugly picture of myself, on snapchat, before sending it to jess. the only thing that stops me from being on my phone is when ashton catches me off guard by saying something.

"don't you agree?"

oh fuck. what do i say? i wasn't even paying attention to them.

"to what?"

"that you still have feelings for calum."

i can feel my face grow red, something that i haven't felt in a long time, as i gulp.

i think we all know i still have feelings for him. he's a great guy.

why'd we even break up in the first place? did the long distance break us up? was it because we just needed a break from each other? i don't even know the real reason anymore.

"you there?"

i snap out of my thoughts and back to the real world, cue dramatic music, and look between each boy.

"hana?" calum watches me. "is it true?"

don't say anything you'll regret. don't say no. say yes. say you love him. say you'll never stop.

"y-yeah."

YES! THE WORDS LEFT MY MOUTH. THOU HAS SPOKEN THE TRUTH.

"really?" i nod my head slowly, afraid of rejection. "finally!"

wait what?

"huh?"

"i've been waiting for you to finally say it! did you really think my feelings for you just went away?"

"um..."

"because they didn't. you're an amazing, phenomenal actually, girl and i have loved you since, like, forever. my feelings didn't just leave right when we broke up."

don't make me die. you're going to make me die. my feelings and emotions can't take this.

"GUYS MY OTP HAS FINALLY SPILLED THEIR FEELINGS! oh and their tea."

ashton's screams attract the attention from luke and maya as they run into the kitchen.

"really?" luke asks, yet also shouting the question. ashton nods his head before the three of them celebrate.

as if slow motion, i turn and look back at calum. his eyes stare into mine and his lips are placed in a smile as they mouth the words 'i love you.'

and now would be the time to cue the awes from the audience.

hm, and to think this all started on twitter...

8/11/17