Starting Line

Chapter 23

Deku P.O.V.

I went through the rest of the week timid. My doubts on Kacchan and I's relationship were growing. I was thinking that maybe they weren't doubts. But truth.

It was Friday night and I was spending the night with Kacchan. We were sat on the couch with the television playing some movie. I wasn't paying attention to the movie really. Kacchan had his arm wrapped around me and I leaned on his shoulder, with my arm wrapped around his waist.

"Kacchan?" I asked quietly.

"Yes?" he said not looking away from the movie.

"You love me right?" I asked.

"Of course I do." he said still looking forward.

He doesn't even bother looking at me when he claims to love me. He must not.

I shifted my position, starting to feel slightly uncomfortable.

He doesn't look at me.

I look forward at the movie. Some fight scene was going on. I stared up at Kacchan's face. It was still and paying no attention to me. It was almost as if I wasn't there. I was just a little pressure on the side of his body.

Was he using me? He's just using me. He just wants me on his side so we won't have to fight all out one day. He just protecting himself by being with me. When he acts worried about me he's just worried about himself. Scared I won't be helping him in a fight when we're heroes. Scared I won't protect him if I just remember him as a bully. He's probably thinking if he's with me I automatically want to help him.

"Deku?" I heard Kacchan ask. I looked at him, oh so now Kacchan looks at me?

"Yes?"

"Are you okay? You've been acting weird." Kacchan said. Turning his body to face me.

He's probably just worried I'm figuring him out.

"I'm fine." I lied, turning my head away from him and looking at the television..

"Deku, look at me." he said turning my head with his hand.

"You didn't look at me." I said quietly, too quiet for Kacchan to hear.

"What?" Kacchan said moving his face closer to mine.

"You didn't look at me." I said clearly. I stare at Kacchan. He looked confused.

"Wait is all because I didn't look at you? When? Was it last week? Two weeks? Is that why you've been weird?" Kacchan rambled.

He doesn't even pay attention to me.

"A minute ago." I said.

"What?"

"When I asked if you loved me you didn't even look at me when you responded!" I said moving away from my spot in Kacchan's arm.

"Well I'm sorry but that doesn't explain your mood this last week!" Kacchan yelled. I stayed quiet.

"Do you want me to tell you I love you?! I love you Deku!" Kacchan yelled. Staring right at me.

"How do know you're not lying." I thought out loud.

"Wait what?" Kacchan said loudly.

"HOW DO I KNOW YOU'RE NOT LYING?!" I screamed at Kacchan. He froze.

"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU SAYING DEKU?!" Kacchan screamed back; standing up. I stood up with him.

"I SAID HOW DO I KNOW YOU'RE NOT LYING?!" I screamed tears rolling down my face. Kacchan made no attempt to wipe them away.

"BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!" Kacchan yelled. He tried to put his hand on my face but I hit his hand away.

"But what if you're just lying to me." I said my voice cracking, crying hard now. I look down and try to wipe away the tears but they wouldn't stop.

"Do you trust me this little?" Kacchan said angry; but at the same time I heard sadness in his voice. I kept looking down.

"DO YOU TRUST ME?!" Kacchan yelled pulling my face up to look at him. I stared into his red eyes which were pricked with tears.

"I don't know anymore..." I cried. Kacchan just stepped back.

"Why?" he said beginning to cry.

"Because you only started being nice to me when you saw my quirk. So..." I said.

"So what?" Kacchan said.

"SO WHAT IF YOU'RE USING ME?!" I scream. Kacchan's tears stopped. He just stared at me.

"If you trust me so little maybe we shouldn't even be together." Kacchan said.

"Maybe." I said still crying. I walk up to Kacchan, "So are we over?" I ask him. His head dropped down.

"I guess so." he said. I broke down. I ran past him and out the door. Kacchan didn't try to stop me, he just stood there. His fists clenched. I ran home. My mother was there.

"Izuku what's wrong?" she said worried when she saw and heard my crying. She ran over to me and gave me a hug.

"Kacchan and I broke up." I sobbed.

"Oh, sweety." she rubbed the back of my head as I cried into her shoulder.

After a while I went up to my room to be alone. My crying had turned from gross sobs to silent tears. My throat hurt from the crying and my nose was running. I just laid down in my bed as the tears started to stop.

I guess Kacchan really didn't love me.

(A/N well that happened)