It All Started At Midnight

//Twelve//

Mentions of past sexual abuse+small attempt(just being pinned against the door but ends right after that) nothing major but it's better to be safe. Love you guys! Thanks for 350+ reads, I still can't believe people bother reading this book but I am so damn thankful.

It was time that Josh had to confront his lover, and he wasn't sure what he was going to say. With a shaky hand he went to knock the door, barely making a tap when his hand finally reached the wooden surface. The door opened suddenly, taking Josh by surprise making him stumble back a bit. He blushed embarrassingly, looking at the ground before he heard a voice speak up.

"Dammit, sorry love, did I scare you?" Eric said worryingly looking at his boyfriend. Josh just shrugged it off and walked inside, Eric closed the door and turned to see Josh looking at him with crossed arms. His face turned serious, and was waiting for Eric to say something else.

"Would you like to sit..?" He asked cautiously, pointing to the familiar couch. Josh tensed and quickly shook his head, tapping his foot impatiently.

"Look, I'm not going to do anything. I promise!" He begged.

"And why the hell would I believe that?" He shot back quickly, taking Eric by surprise.

"I-I...." He began, and sighed in defeat.

"You're right, I can't expect you to trust me after what happened." He said honestly, biting his lip nervously. Josh softened a little, wanting to comfort him he usually always did. But he held back, he was afraid putting even the slightest touch on him will have a repeat of what happened. He just stared at him, not sure what he wanted to say.

"Well don't just stand there without saying anything!" Eric yelled, the quietness of Josh making him anxious on what he may decide.

Josh stepped back, the yelling making him a bit scared. Tears pricked his eyes a bit, he felt really bad for making him wait so long.

"D-don't yell at me Eric." Josh said quietly. Eric just stood quiet, feeling guilty yet so desperate for more words.

"You have no idea how used I felt that night, out of all people, Eric, I trusted you. And you fucking let your dick control your actions." His voice was shaky, but he kept any tears inside. The chance of forgiving Eric seemed small again, being in the environment where it happened, brought it all back again. 

"But I still love you dammit! I still love you after the shit you did, and I can never forgive myself for that." He continued, his anxiety coming back.

"Baby I'm sorry-" Eric replied going for a hug but quickly denied by Josh stepping back again.

"Don't you dare touch me." Josh warned, not wanting to make eye contact and instead staring at the floor. Then Eric just started getting pissed, the guilt he had originally, disappearing. He was confused, hurt, and just annoyed at how Josh was "overreacting".

"You were the one that decided to stay knowing I was drinking." He said, glaring at the shaky boy in front of him.

Josh just stared at him in disbelief.

"You decided to let me kiss you and hold you, you decided to keep going until you got scared like the coward you are." Venom resting in his words, Josh was frozen in place. It's almost as if Eric's angry glare had in a trance, and he couldn't move. All he could do was let tears roll down his face, how could Eric pin the blame on him?

"You overreact with everything Josh, you've always been a scared bitch." He continued, not caring how hurt Josh looked. Josh continued staring, more tears rolling down. But he had enough, he now knows that Eric wasn't going to apologize, and he was just as mad as he was.

"I came here expecting an apology you jerk." Josh replied quietly. He walked to the door but before he could turn the handle, he was pinned by Eric.

"Don't you dare fucking leave." He threatened. Josh's anger washed over his fear and just stepped harshly on Eric's foot, watching him yell in pain.

"And it's obvious that you're not gonna say sorry. Goodbye Eric, we're through." Josh said, and dashed out the door, walking quickly back to his house.

Josh was done with him, he may have came over to accept his apology but the sense was knocked into him. Yet, he still felt intense heart break. He was a walking sobbing mess, but he still sensed a wave of relief.

I didn't wanna be cruel and have Eric stay, so now he is out for now but he will come back ;)) plz give this chapter a vote and leave so feedback !! I wanna improve and I need help in doing so