All Kamoni's life she's been let down, from friends, to family, all the way down to relationships. Being loyal to those who don't deserve it, feeling worthless, and always coming second in everyone's life. At 19, Kamoni realizes she's all she got. H...
Done fronting like I don't want you Keep treating me like I don't know you Back and forth between me and all yo niggas You're busy tonight, that figures Tonight you're staying in his city And I still answer your call when doesn't at all But I want that too that all, I need the same in return that's all
-Bryson Tiller
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Jason Lamont Livingston
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It's been about two weeks since the whole thing with Moni and ol dude happened. After she came over here, I knew she was vulnerable and hurt that's why she kissed me but I put a end to it before it went any further. She didn't get into depth about what she'd seen at Tony house that day, she just sat quietly and watch the movie, if that. But I knew she wasn't really watching, it was like she was just starring at the T.V in deep thought. I tried to keep her mind off of it by trying to hold conversation but she was making shit awkward. I hate when she act like that cause that just throws my whole vibe off. I ended up going straight to my room after the movie was over not really wanting to be around her when she's acting like that but I understand she had a reason to but at least tell me what's up, help me help you.
We're currently at my house, she fell asleep on me when she the one who decided to come over here because she was bored but I know she just wanted to be under me. Me and Moni always hung around each other but dude wasn't with it. He swear we had something going on but believe it or not, he was the reason why we never went further. She's so loyal to him it's crazy. I don't know if he care for her or just like the fact that she's just down for him.
I mean, yeah he makes her happy. It's obvious, cause when they're good it's good but when it's bad, it's like an everlasting war. But it's like I have to hide my feelings when dealing with her. To protect myself. Kamoni tells me everything, at least that what I think. I know her like the back of my hand. She can say she's done with dude all she wants but I know if it came to it, she'd choose him and it's crazy that I'm thinking like that but it's the truth.
I like Moni, I mean I think I love her but I don't know. My feelings are deep for her but we have lines we won't cross. At least I refuse to. I won't play cat and mouse with Moni when it comes to my feelings. I keep it real with her though, I tell her what it is and what it ain't. I took in her features. Her smooth brown skin, her pretty plumped lips, the mole above her top lip on the left like a small chocolate chip. I mentally laughed at my joke, her thick but neat eyebrows. She was just beautiful. She was lying on her stomach facing me, if she not on her stomach she will not fall asleep. I find that funny cause if I'm tired enough I'll fall asleep on my back but that's just me.
I want Moni. I want to show her, her worth. She knows it but it's like this nigga Rashard got some type of hold on her. She feels like she needs to be there, like she owes him something but it's just me. I could be tripping. I was there all her lonely nights. When he acted like he didn't want nothing to do with her until he heard about her being around me. If it's not with him, he don't want Kamoni moving on or talking to other people. She feels like she obligated to this nigga.
