HER DIARY ( Taehyung & Sujeong )

Chapter 7 | Tired

Sujeong's Pov

We (Sujeong and the child in her womb) have arrived in London safely and believe we it was tiring. Why?

1. I've been walking for hours

2. Im pregnant

3. I'm carrying a luggage which is not really that heavy.

4.I was walking with heels (2 inch high)

I walked around the streets to find a house I could rent but in the end of the day I found nothing. Hopefully I can found one tomorrow and since I can't just sleep in the streets I went to a nearest hotel to book a room for me or should I say us.

I massage my legs trying to ease a little bit of pain. Sighing I lay in my bed which is provided by the hotel and slowly my tears fell from my eyes. My hands traveled to my stomach and gently started to caress it. I close my eyes as I bite my lips and let thoughts come.

'Would I be able to do this alone?'

'How is Taehyung oppa doing?'

'How do I raise a child?'

I opened my eyes shaking the thoughts off and lifelessly walk to the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror and it didn't surprise me from looking horrible. I tried to smile but it doesn't seem to work making it seem like I was drunk.

Soon I took my eyes off my face and my sight caught my stomach which is currently keeping my baby in. My tears fell which I didn't mind wiping and clutched my stomach. I curled up in a corner while crying and soon selfish thoughts and questions took me back to a trance.

'If we could have been careful would this happen?'

'This baby is a disgrace.'

'What would happen if I just kill this baby? Would it fix things?'

I suddenly remembered something when I was walking around. Earlier I saw a lady looking so happy with a child and I saw love and care from the way she acts. They were playing together and laughing together as if they were the only person in the world.

I hit myself from having those thoughts and look down to see my hand holding a knife pointing to my stomach. My hands shake causing the knife to fall down and hit myself more.

Then I started to think what would happen after give birth to this child. I wonder how much I could give to our baby and how much love I would get back. How I would be sending him/her to school and kiss him/her goodbye. When I hear his/her first word and when he/she started to walk. When I have to attend meetings for his/her school.

I sob in the corner and soon darkness overtook me causing me to loose consciousness.

TBC

Author's note 📝: To all my dear readers
I'm deeply sorry for not updating the past week/s
I'm also sorry for putting too much drama in this book 📚
I want you guys to know that I do think about you guys but WiFi doesn't like me
Anyways thank you 😊 for reading 📖