Her Human Mate

Is this wrong? It feels right

Crystal's POV

"Honey we'll be back in a month okay? There's some pack business we have to attend to." My dad said kissing my forehead. "Okay I understand." I gave him a small smile and nodded. My dad is the beta so he has to attend a lot of pack meetings and wars, since my mom is his mate she has to join them. Half of the pack attends these meetings alongside them except for the Alpha's son, some warrior's and, of course, omegas.

The Alpha's son doesn't go because he is the next in line and has to learn how to deal with things related to pack grounds. The fighting and pointless meetings can wait.

"Don't worry sir I'll take care of her." I rolled my eyes and elbowed him in the stomach. "I'm 20 years old I can take care of myself James."

My dad chuckled and shook his head. "Thank you son. You better or it'll be your head on a stick." He said with a stern face. Alpha John punched him in the shoulder. "Lets go old man the plane leaves in 30." He hugged James and kissed me on my cheek. "You guys behave alright? And take good care of everyone else." By everyone else he means the Omega's, children, and mothers. I smiled and nodded at him. "Have a safe trip mom and dad."

My mom kissed my cheek and walked out. "Don't do anything I wouldn't do!" She said running towards the car. I groaned and walked away. "So embarrassing!" James laughed and closed the door when they walked out. "So it's just us two." He said walking beside me. "Yeah us and 20 other people." I said walking up the stairs. He laughed and followed behind me.

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I plopped down on my bed and sighed. "Crystal." James said sitting beside me. I looked at him and raised an eyebrow. "Would things change if ... if we find our mates?" I frowned and leaned against the headboard. "What do you mean?" He sighed and turned to face me, pulling my legs around him. I giggled and thumped his head. "Careful I'm fragile." I said.

He didn't say anything but stared. I frowned a little and crossed my arms across my chest. "James ... what's wrong?" I whispered and he grabbed my arms pulling them apart so he could hold my hands. "Crystal I ... I don't want to find my mate." I gasped and tried to pull my hands away from him but he held on tighter. "No just listen please?" I stopped struggling a little. "Why don't you want to find your mate? I swear James if you're whoring around and decide to reject her I'll-"

"I'm not whoring around." He said cutting me off and rolling his eyes. "And I would NEVER reject my mate. You know what happens to us if we do. But ... the reason why I don't want to find her yet is because I have someone, and I want to live my life with her first." He looked down and took a deep breath. "I've known her for a while now and she's been a big part of my life. She has a special place in my heart and I don't think anyone can replace it. She's funny, beautiful, has long glorious hair that stops just in the middle of her back. Her eyes are so captivating I get lost in thought by just looking at them." As he was speaking he tucked a hair behind my ear and gently caressed my face. I blushed at the action and poked his chest.

"So who is this special lady hmm?" His eyes were shining bright and filled with so much love when he was explaining all of this. I've never seen such an expression on his face before. This girl must be really special. "I . . . I can't say. Not right now." I scoffed and squeezed his face in between my hands. "James I'm a girl. You can't tell me all of that stuff and expect me to not want more! Tell me who it is. I'm your best friend you know you have to tell me right? We can become a trio! Oh I would love to have a girl best friend! Is she apart of this pack? I hope she's nice. And-"

"It's you! Crystal. I'm in love with you."

I couldn't say anything but stare. I slowly removed my hands from his face and frowned a little. The action made him tense up but he still held me close.  He's telling me this now? Why now? After all of these years . . . Why couldn't he say something when my mom was here? Now I have no one to talk to about this! This is all so sudden. This confession is going to change everything. What did I do to make him fall in love with me? I didn't lead him on or anything. Right? Our relationship is never going to be the same now. Tears slowly started to prick my eyes and I blinked to keep them at bay. "James I-" I choked up and covered my mouth. I don't love him in that way. I'm going to lose my best friend.

"I know you don't love me like I love you. So you don't have to say it. I just wanted to get that out of my system." He pulled his hands away from mine and looked away. "Just don't... "reject" me." I grabbed his chin and turned his head so that he can look at me. "James stop." I closed my eyes and took a deep breath so I could collect my thoughts. "You know I love you. Yes, its not in that way but I do love you more than anything in the world. You know we can't do this though. Because once you find your mate you'll love her more than me." He scoffed and shook his head. "I could never love anyone more than you. We've known each other since we were in diapers. Crystal I'm in love with you. And nothing's going to change that. No rule or mate bond is going to change the fact that I would want you just as much as my mate. We are perfect for each other. Yes we aren't mates but that's doesn't mean we aren't compatible." He gently grabbed my cheek.

I closed my eyes again to keep from saying something that'll ruin our relationship. "I know you feel it. We have something and I can't explain what it is." He grabbed the other side of my face. I sighed and grabbed his hand. "Please don't make this difficult for me." I said looking up at him. "This can't happen because if and when I do find my mate you'll be so devastated. And I don't want to hurt you James. You're my best friend and I don't want to lose you." He shook his head. "Baby girl you could never lose me. We're stuck together like glue." I started to tear up again.

I don't want to break his heart. I don't even know what to say to him now. I might lose him because of this. I felt him wipe a stray tear that ran down my face. "Please don't cry. It hurts to see you cry. It always has." I sniffled and gave him a small smile. "I'm not crying my eyes are just sweating." He chuckled and shook his head. "Lay with me." He said moving to the other side of the bed. I pulled the covers back and got under them. He took his shirt off, like he normally does, and got under the covers as well. He pulled me into him and I rested my head on his shoulder. "I don't want things to change between us." I said closing my eyes. He grabbed the side of my face and kissed my forehead. "I won't let that happen shortcake. We're still the same little children who ate mud pies." I chuckled and moved closer to him. "Good. Maybe we should make some later."

"Chocolate cake?" He asked and I nodded as he pulled me closer. "Let's stay like this for a while."

Holding him always felt right. Now it's different. Is this wrong? It feels right.

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