Her Human Mate

love

Crystal pov

It hasn't been easy at all. Everything is gone. Moms, children, warriors, loved ones, and most importantly, my dad. It's been so hard without him. My mom hasn't spoken to me in weeks, and she said it was my fault that he died. How could it possibly be my fault? He was saving this pack like he was supposed to do. But she doesn't think so, she thinks that I was too weak to do anything so he had to help me and by doing so he got himself killed. I would never put my dad in harms way like that.

I know she lost her mate but that does not give her a reason to disrespect me and blame me for something that I did not start.

We had his funeral a couple of weeks ago, and that's when she showed her true colors. When I put flowers on his grave she took them off and threw them at my face and called me a traitor. How could I possibly betray my dad? How could I possibly betray anyone? I've been taking her words and trying to throw them over my shoulder, but it's been really hard when no one supports you. Not even the alpha, my mom has been in his ear nonstop about how I betrayed the pack, about how I made us lose because of how weak and useless I am. I'm starting to believe that I am weak and useless. I couldn't even defend myself properly. Why did I have to be an Omega? This is totally unfair. I know there are others like me but I feel like I'm the true outcast. Some Omegas trained and became strong and reliable to the pack. Why am I so different?

We've been trying to rebuild the pack house for a while now. Everyone's been lending a helping hand and trying their best to hold on. After the hybrid had killed the alpha that attacked us, he made everyone bow and go back to their land. After that he healed me by licking my wounds. I'm grateful that the goddess gave me a guardian. We aren't supposed to trust hybrids but she sent him to me. How could I not trust him? I haven't heard from him since though. I tried contacting him but it feels like our connection has been shut off.

James has been comforting me which is surprising. I think he's only doing this because my dad is gone and he knows how it feels to lose a parent. I've been vacant ever since but he's been there with me unlike some people. I feel like our relationship will restore because of this. I've been waiting for this moment for a while now. I just want my old life back, I want everything to go back to normal, but I know that's not going to happen. Everything is going to be very different and I don't think I'm going to be able to handle it. I already can't handle my mom, and now I have to deal with my dad not being here. I don't think I'm able to stay here for another week.

I want to stay with Brian but I know my pack needs me. I can't just give up on them now because of my selfish needs. Everybody is suffering not just me and I need to keep reminding myself of that.

"Stop beating yourself up about this. You're making me depressed, human. I feel the loss more than you can feel it. The loss of a wolf is more painful than a thousand deaths. I can't bare to feel your anguish as well. I need my mate, can we please go see my mate?"

I shut her out and sighed. I haven't talked to Brian ever since this happened. I did text him to tell him not to come see me, that I need time to think about some things. He hasn't come over but he's been calling and texting me nonstop. I hate worrying him like this but it's kind of hard to not talk to him about what just happened. I feel like I need to tell him about who I am. But the fear of losing my mate after losing my dad has been tearing me up inside. Nothing is right anymore. Maybe I should start making things right.

By first telling my mate who I am.

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I stood in front of Brian's house contemplating to knock or not. If I do then I have to tell him, but if I don't then I could probably wait another week. I felt my wolf getting angry and tried to force her way through but I kept her down. I was about to walk away until the door swung open. It was Brian's dad. He's back?