In Your Eyes ↦ Lauren/You

Chapter 49

Dr. Jauregui's POV

I keep walking down on the grass, leading me to someone who truly knows my intention to Y/N and Lauren. I know she understands why I keep on forbidding the love that they have for each other. I just didn't do it for myself, but for them also.

I stop my tracks when I finally reach my destination. I kneel down and place the bouquet of lilies next to her grave. I run my fingers through her name and I can feel the tears on my eyes starting to spill out.

It's been a day since Lauren cried and begged right in front of me. She begged for her own happiness, she begged to be with Y/N. She even knelt down for me. I can't stand the look on her face. The images of my own daughter's face, how broken she looks when I didn't even said anything to her. Am I that bad? I'm just trying to protect the two of them.

I don't know how long I've been sitting down in front of my wife's grave in silence when I started to speak up. "This is why you stopped me. The way you look at me way back then when I did something wrong, now I fully understand." I said with a force laugh slips past my lips. "Clara, those kids are saying that they are having a hard time because of me. They're telling me that I'm the one who's preventing them to be happy. But I only did it because I thought it would have been better for the two of them. I thought it would work if I both told them that I can't let them be together." I sighed. "I only did that so they won't experience the pain they will feel if ever they found out what I did. They will just hurt each other if they found out the crime that happened twelve years ago. I'm just trying to protect them. That's why I don't want them to be together." A shaky breath surpasses my mouth and look down.

I run my hands to my wife's name that's engrave to her grave. "Your daughter literally begged to me last night to give her the happiness that she deserves. I want to, trust me, I do. But her happiness is not to move out from our house. Her happiness that she's begging to have is to be with Y/N." I said as I keep talking to my wife's grave. "I can't stand how broken our Lauren looked like. I can't stand seeing her cry because of me. Am I being a bad father to her? To them?"

"Clara, how can I tell them the real reason why I don't want them to be together without telling them what an unforgivable sin that I did that made them separate from each other and ruined both of their lives? It's impossible, right?" I take a deep breath and continues, "Those kids probably hate me right now and if I ever told them that I killed Y/N's mom, they will both resent me and curse me to death. But I don't want them to hate me. This must be my karma."

I look up at the sky, noticing that the sun is hiding back from the clouds and I take a long deep breath. My gaze look back to my wife's grave, "Clara, you know what's in my heart, right? You know my real intentions are, right? You know that the love that I have to Y/N and Lauren is true and sincere, right? At least you know that, right?" The tears from my eyes rolls down from my cheeks and I remove my eyeglasses to wipe it.

"Clara, I don't know what to do." I muttered out quietly and sighed. "I don't want them to suffer from the mistake that I did."

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"Dr. Jauregui," I snapped out of my thoughts when I saw Dr. Liz Hemmings standing in front of my desk.

"Dr. Hemmings," I gesture for her to sit down on the couch and I followed her as I take a seat across of her.

"Can we talk?" She asked and I mumbled out, okay.

I place down two tea cups on the center table of my office and I offer one to Luke's mom. "What are we going to talk about? I know you must be very disappointed with my daughter, Lauren."

"I'm not. And it's over now. And we actually can't force them to marry each other if your daughter don't love my son. And we should stop being uncomfortable with each other because of the kids." Liz said as she lift her tea cup up and take a sip on it.