Why?
Why did she have to leave me?
Why did I make a mess of everything?
Why couldnt I be free to love someone without losing them?
All these thoughts swirled inside my head. I was laying down on the bridge. It was quiet. It was peaceful. It was home. The blade had already made a few new small cuts. It lay beside me coated with some of my blood. They hadnt been very deep this time though. I didnt have the energy to cry anymore.
I heard light footsteps and was ready to smack Siope off the bridge. Regretting that I ever showed him this. But it wasnt him. I turned my head to see Normani throw my blade off the bridge in anger. She grabbed my wrist, cleaned my blood with a water bottle, and wrapped up the cuts gently. I never though I could miss her simole touch so much.
When she had finished she laid down beside me. Her breathing slow. She didnt look at me but up at the night sky.
Finally I decided to break the silence. "What are you doing here?"
"I'll leave if you want me too." She says.
"No please." I beg. "Stay."
"Okay."
I wait for her to say more.
"You know I couldnt talk when Ally came to us at lunch?" She finally says.
"You could that morning." I say a bit harshly. Too harsh. More than I had intended.
She flinched. "Did you ever think that maybe I needed some Yin Fe. And that I didnt want to take it because I thought I had lost you and my life wasnt worth living anymore."
My heart softens. "Oh Normani, please dont ever do that. If you died, I dont think I could live with myself."
"But you could Dinah. Because your strong. You have Siope. You dont need me. I have nobody. My parents love me but theyd see it was for the better. Im dead weight to everybody-"
I roll over and tilt her upwards. Crashing my lips to hers.
For a moment oxygen is a pretty forgein thing.
All that exists is her now. God how I missed this. Her sweet soft lips. Their silky smooth texture. I didnt know anyone could have such smooth lips. The way they molded to mine. Perfectly fitting. Her sweet taste of honey. So addicting.
I pulled back. "I love you."
She smiled. "I dont deserve it. Not after what I put you through."
"I dont either. But we were made for eachother. And I wont ever leave you. This is us. Our infinity. And it survives because we were meant to be. Tell me you love me. Please."
Normani looks up to me again. Frightened, like a little kid. "I love you."
And thats all I need to kiss her again. Feeling her. Loving her. Craving her. Thankful that she is finally mine.
Or not,
"Excuss us!" Normanis mom...
