[Normani Kordei]
So soft.
Her lips were as soft as I imagined
Dinah.
All that exsisted was Dinah.
Red.
The color of my emotions.
When she pulled away she had a stern look. "Dont ever talk about yourself like that. Your amazing and beautiful and wonderful-"
I nodded mid sentence and pulled her back down. My lips craving hers. She was shocked but kissed me back. Our lips fitting perfectly together.
When we finally caught our breaths she smiled. "So do you finally know your emotions?"
I shrugged. In all honesty I loved everything about her. But I just didnt know if that was only friendship anymore.
Dinah nodded. "When you do, I'll be waiting."
"Dinah- I dont want to get your hopes up. What if I never actually want you-"
She cuts me off, leaning in, her hand on my cheek. "I will die a little everyday, watching you fall in love with someone else. But if we can still be at least friends, its more than I could ever dream of."
I smile. "Your amazing."
"Im honest." She said modestly.
I laugh. "A great type of honest."
She raises an eyebrow. "Im going to go along with it because your adorable."
Smiling, I pull her back down and kiss her. I didnt think it was possible. But it is.
She pulls back and I open my mouth to say it. But Im frozen. My parents stand in the doorway.
My dad comes forward and grabs Dinahs arm. "I think you need to leave."
"Dad its not-"
"Its exactly what it looks like. She kissed you-"
"No!" I interrupt. "I kissed her."
My mom comes beside me. Her eyes filled with shame and saddness. Dinah is in the doorway, my dad out in the hallway trying relentlessly to drag her out.
"You what?" My mom asks. Her voice a whisper.
"I kissed her." I repeated.
"Normani this is what we didnt want-"
"And I dont care." I interrupt. "You dont get to chose who you fall in love with. And I happened tof all for her. And if you guys really loved me you wouldnt care."
Dinahs eyes widened in disbelief and happiness. "You love me?"
I smile as my dad tugs harder. "Huh. I guess I do. Otherwise maybe this wouldnt hurt so much."
She gives me another smile before being taken away by my dad. Probably gone from my life forever. I bite my lip in order to restrain my tears.
I love her.
I really do.
And now my parents would kill me.
Because I loved a girl.
Slowly, I face my mom. Her eyes betraying disappointment. I wait for her to say something.
When she doesnt I sigh. "So you hate me right?"
"Normani I could never. But I still think you need more friends. Especially after this incident. Your father and I have decided your starting school."
"School?" I ask shocked.
She nods. "I think it will help you to have some friends."
"Dinah-"
She cuts me off. "I want to hear no more of Dinah. Understood?"
I nod. Not trusting myself to speak. Not after what happened.
She smiles. "Emerald Academy. Bright and early." She gives me a smile. Your doctors say your in the clear and you can start tomorrow."
A fake smile and a nod.
"I love you." She leans down and kisses my forehead. "Get some rest."
She keaves quickly and I know shes a liar. Maybe if she had loved me she wouldnt care who I loved or who I dated. But she cared because in her eyes I was imperfect for it. A disgrace to god.
A tear slipped from my eyes as I finally fell asleep.
