"DINAH!"
That voice.
I turn around and fall straight into Normanis arms. Her lips crashing so desperatly into mine. I savor the sweet taste. Its her. Its really her. Shes here. Shes with me. We are together. We are infinet. Shes all mine.
Normani pulls back, tears in her eyes. "I remember, I remember, I remember," She says hastily.
I give a little laugh.
She smacks me. "Dont you dare laugh at this Dinah Jane! You almost just killed yourself for me! Why the fuck would you do that?"
"Because I love you." I say simply. "You mean everything to me and without you my life is nothing,"
"Dinah!" She groans, laughing with relief. Her emotions all over the place. "If you had killed yourself where do you think I would be now?"
"Back at the hospital?"
She nods. "Its you Dinah. All you. Your the reason my memory is here. Not the Yin Fe. I dont need it. I only need you. You help me survive. You keep me alive."
Normanis eyes land on my bloody body. "Oh no..."
I shrug. "No big deal-"
"Dinah!"
"Why do you keep saying my name?" I giggle.
She stands up and forces me up.
"How are you so-"
"Able?" She asks. "I shouldnt be but..."
"You took a lot of Yin Fe?" I guess.
She nods. "I had to. The moment you left my memory cleared. My world brightened. I tried moving but everything killed. I downed at least 8 glasses, practically jumped out the window-"
"You what!?" I shriek.
Normani laughs. "Trust me, I tried but they forced me to use the doors. I raced to the only place I knew you would be, this bridge. My body is numb and I'll regret this tomorrow but for now its you and me and our infinity."
I nod mutely. My head pounding,
"Dinah?" She asks.
I look at her. But its hard considering my world is spinning.
Her eyes widen. "No Dinah no... Please you cant..."
My eyes train on her but shes sobbing.
"Hey," I say cupping her cheek. "Its okay."
"Dinah your so stupid!" She yells. "Do you not see how much blood this is!?"
I look at her and realise she is drenched in blood. My blood.
"Shit." I say, my voice hoarse.
"Dinah Dinah Dinah!" She pleads making me focus on her. "Please tell me you have your phone."
"I- umm-"
She curses. "I will be right back. I swear. Dont you dare move."
"Im kind of incapable." I say with a smirk.
"This is not the time for jokes!" She shouts. Normani takes my arms from around her and gets me to lay down on the bridge. Instead of the coble though its red. All my blood.
I see her figure running off. But the image is hazy. I watch her leave. The light brightens. I love her. Who wouldve guessed our infinity would live on? I wouldnt. Because I knew, in that moment, that it wouldnt.
[Normani Kordei]
No no no.
Anyone.
Anyone but Dinah.
I run to the town out of the forest. My parents are there.
"Normani what were you-" My dad starts but I cut him off.
"No time Dinah is dieing!"
Their eyes widen and my mom calls an ambulence. We make our way back to the bridge. Dinah lies there. Her eyes closed. Her wrists, legs, and shirt covered in blood. But the bleeding is done. The damage is done.
I fall to my knees beside her. "Dinah no! Dinah please you cant! Not like this! Dinah I love you! I love you so much it hurts! Please... Dont do this."
A paramedic comes forward. "Im sorry miss, we checked her over but the cuts are so big-"
I tune him out. I cant listen. I cant. No. I love her. Shes here. She has to be. We did not go through this fucked up few weeks for this to happen! It was weeks. 2 or 3! I didnt even get a year. She has to be alive.
But I look down at her dead body.
Her chest doesnt move.
Shes not here.
Shes not with me.
I feel dead inside. And I wish I was dead. I look at the bridge but arms grab me before I can even try.
"Do you think thats what Dinah would want?" My mom asks softly.
"Well shes not here anymore now is she?" I snap. "I didnt even get a month. And half of it was because you guys wouldnt let us. And now she is gone, mom, gone."
"I know Normani Im so sorry-"
"Stop it!" I shout. "Your not sorry. I bet your happy! Now you dont have a slutty dyke daughter-"
"Thats enough." My dad says firmly.
I groan. "Why cant you just out me out of my misery?"
"Because your not a dog-"
"But youve treated me like one my entire life! Ever since that man! And I know he was the same one that fucking whipped me and did this to me! He ruined everything! Dad, who was he!?"
My dad hesitates. "He was a friend from school who was angry thats all."
"Well he ruined my life. So much of it dad. So much!"
"You have to leave Normani. Dinah-"
"You guys didnt know Dinah. You didnt even bother to try and get to know her! You didnt care. It was all because she was a girl! Now shes dead. Are you guys happy? Our infinity is dead!"
My dad takes me. "Common lets go."
"No!"
I slouch back down beside Dinah. She looks so perfect. Its hard to belive shes dead. And shes dead because of me. Because of my parents. If they had just let us be. If my dad hadnt tried to yank us apart I wouldntve gotten into the street and been hit. If I hadnt been hit I wouldntve lost my memory. If that hadnt happened I wouldntve forgotten Dinah and made her cut herself and try to commit suicide...
Barely. Im barely aware. Barely aware of being taken back to my house. Barely aware that my parents force me to eat and drink. Barely aware of Lauren, Ally, and Camila coming in. Barely aware.
"Oh my god Normani!" Ally says when she sees me. Im on the couch staring into space. It shorts and a t-shirt. I probably look like a wreck.
My head turns to her. "Hi." I say flattly.
"Stop mopping Dinah-"
"Just stop." I say with a tired voice. "Stop. No more Dinah. I just need to be alone guys."
"I bet you dont realise its been weeks do you?" Lauren butts in.
"Nope." I say and storm out.
Then I find myself sitting on the bridge. Her blood dried. Tears falling off my cheeks. None of this shouldve happened. None of it...
