"Who are you?"
Who are you?
Those words.
They say words wont break you. Only sticks and stones. I beg to differ because that fucking tore out my heart. Normani. My Normani. It wasnt a joke. My Normani... She didnt know- doesnt know, who I am...
I felt her moms hand on my shoulder. "Normani lost quite a bit of memory during the accident." She said softly. "I see now that keeping you away is impossible and I wont stop it anymore. You love my daughter and make her happy and I regret everything I put you through."
I couldnt respond though. Her words were empty to me. Seeing Normanis blank stare. The sparkle they got when she saw me was gone. Shew as gone. Gone...
"Look Im sorry-" Normani began but I burst before she could get any farther.
"Where is he? Wheres is the fucking criminal that did this? Im goingg to hit him with his own stolen car!" I screamed.
A nurse came over. "Look hun Im sorry-"
"Dont fucking lie." I spat. "Your just trying to help but gyess what? Lies from strangers make me angrier because despite the fact your trying to comfort me your making it worse by mocking me with your 'oh Im sorry' but you dont know me and you cant be sorry for me."
The nurse wobbles back in shock of my harsh words but I dont care. I sit down beside Normani, taking her hand.
"Please come back. Please. Its me, Dinah. Your girlfriend-"
"Girlfriend?" She muses. "Im straight."
"I love you. The real you. And I know your in there."
She rolls her eyes. "Look I know who I am. And Im not a fucking dyke."
Her words stung. No, they broke me.
I burst into tears but she looks like she couldnt care less.
"Get the fuck away from me." She says harshly.
"Normani Kordei!" Her mom yells but i stand.
"Nope. Shes right. After all, I am a fucking dyke." I turn to her. "Guess our infinity wasnt meant to last. I mean all good things in life die right?"
And I storm out of her room. Away from the hospital. My vision blinded by tears. I stumble through the forest. I grab my blade from the river and begin mindlessly cutting my wrist. Moving upwards slashing out across my arm. When I run out of space moving to the next.
Then I scrape my legs, the bridge is practically red now. My tears falling so fast. I slam the blade into my stomach. Slicing harder and harder. The pain isnt there. Just red. Burning red. Blood red. My life without her.
But its not even worth it.
Nothing is worse than not having her.
I look over the edge of the bridge.
Then Im climbing ontop of the bridge. Staring at the deadly drop.
My life without Normani is a waste.
I cant love anyone else.
I cant love.
I cant breath.
She is my everything.
She is the thing that keeps me alive.
I dont think.
I cant think.
My eyes close.
The wind whistling in my ears.
Normani.
