My life is stupid.
Tears fall off my cheeks as the blade runs across it. Im such an idiot. I love Normani. Only Normani. But seeing her today, with Ally. I knew for certain she didnt love me anymore. I had screwed up beyond repair. Maybe Siope would dull the ache. But I knew he wouldnt.
I had texted her nonstop with no reply. Not one single text. No calls. Nothing.
Worthless.
Slice.
Slut.
Cut.
Whore.
Cut.
Hope.
At that word I hesitate. Then I remember.
I gave Normani hope. She gave me hope. Now look what I fucking did.
Slice.
I pick up the Book Theif. Hugging it tight to my chest. It reminds me of her. Blood falls onto the floor. I hear the door open and curse. Quickly, I wrap my arm and clean the floor. Slipping on my jacket.
"Dinah?"
"Yeah Mom?" I call down.
"Are you okay?"
"Im fine." I lie.
"Hows Normani?"
I swallow hard. Tears threatening to fall again. "Shes good." I choke out.
"Are you sure? I thought I saw her and Ally-"
But I dont let her finish. I slam my bedroom door and flop down on my bed. Tears finally falling.
*Tuesday*
-Lunch
The morning had come and gone quickly. Dully. I saw Normani once. Once. I didnt even try coming to her. My heart wasnt ready for that. Siope stopped by my locker before lunch. Swinging an arm over my shoulder.
"You okay Babe?" He asks kissing me.
I nod mutely. Its not okay.
Slowly I walk into lunch. Sitting down next to him. He still has his arm around me.
"Are you sure your okay?" He asks again.
"Yeah. Im great." I snuggle into him. Grateful.
"Dinah?" Normanis frail voice.
I look up to see her standing there. Her face experssionless.
"Yes?" I ask.
"I guess we are over huh?" She says softly.
I nod. "Thats what I assumed after Ally-"
"Well fuck if you actually listened to me."
"Normani you didnt answer me!"
"What are you talking about?" She asked dumbfounded.
I roll my eyes. "Whatever."
Normani looks at Siope. "This isnt over."
And she runs out,
Siope stares after her angry.
"Its okay-"
"No its not." He growls and chases after her.
He is fast and by the time I get there I see Normani on the ground. Not even fighting. Siope is shouting at her.
"You fucking bitch! Your so selfish. Why the fuck are you still here? Why the hell do you bother breathing when no one cares?"
"Siope!" I say. "How the hell could you say that!?"
"Its fine Dinah." Normani says standing. "I know you think the same thing."
"Mani-"
"Dont."
"Dont fucking say that to my grilfriend!" Siope says slapping her.
"Jesus!" I scream and grab Siopes arm. "What the hell!?"
"She doesnt deserve to live. She broke your heart-"
"You broke my heart." I remind him cutting him off.
Normani raises an eyebrow but he punches her.
"Siope!"
"Dinah stop. I deserve this." She stands again.
"Hell right you do." He growls.
Normani looks at me. "Guess our infinity wasnt meant to last."
"Normani-"
"Stop." She says. "Its fine."
I walk over. "No its not." My voice is a whisper.
She pushes away. "Its funny. I always knew someone would be heartbroken after this. Never thought it would really be me. And I never thought you would really get my hopes up to tear them down like that."
With those words she walks off. Maybe out of my life forever.
