"NOOO!"
I woke up in my bed panting and sobbing. More than anything I wished I could see her again. Call her, just hear her voice. But I cant. Maybe our infinity wasnt meant to last. But Normani being run over... run over purely. Not just a slow down hit but a full speed, no stop, not slowing hit, that was a pretty cruel way to tell us that we werent meant to be together.
We werent meant to be together...
We were.
Fuck the world. I loved her and there was no stopping me.
I loved her.
I love her.
My breathing hitched. I popped a cigar into my mouth, bitting down harshly. The blade in my had unconciously. The strokes werent even real pain any more. The pain wasnt even there. All the emotional pain was too much. I moved over to our library. Yes our home was small. Yes we had a secret library. Yes only I knew about it.
This was my place. Not even Siope knew.
Not even Normani.
Tears burned my eyes and I looked into the fire place. It burned but I didnt know where the smoke went. I grabbed the fire poker, playing with the sticks.
Normani.
My everything.
The one thing in my life that made my infinity brighten.
Gone.
All by that man.
In the burning red vehicle.
Bloody red.
I screamed as my hand closed around the heated fire poker. Blacking out soon afterwards.
/Wednesday/
Fuck.
Fuck this hell hole.
Fuck everything in the world.
I kept seeing Siope but I ignored him. All my classes had gone by without me knowing. I couldnt remember anything. It was all too blank. All too boring. I wanted to see her so bad. But her parents were still at the hospital. And I deffinetly wasnt able to see her.
Ally, Camila, and Lauren helped a little. We all have been getting a long better. Ally and Lauren are back together. Camila is dating a football player. And Im without Normani.
"It'll be okay." Camila promised.
"Whatever." I still particuarly hate Camila and Ally. For everything.
"Who the fuck hit her?" Lauren asked.
"A wanted criminal. He is wanted in at least 17 states and that was a stolen car even." I give a wimoy laugh. "Guess its a crime to have something in your life that you love."
"Dont say that!" Lauren protested. "Normani loves you and she'll come back to you."
"Tell that to her parents." I say half heartedly.
A teacher stops by. Miss Cabello. Camilas mom the english teacher. She places a hand on my shoulder. "Are you okay Dinah."
I give her a fake smile but before I can answer she says, "Dont give me the lies."
I shake my head. "Im not sure-"
"DINAH!"
The principle?
I turn and he stops. "You were Normanis girlfriend right?"
"Yes." I say a little irritated with all the attention.
"Shes awake."
