Similarities and Differences

Learned A Lot

Thursday, August 31

This month went so fast. Dang. A lot happened, and I learned a lot about myself. I learned how important it is to be open with people. I learned how important forgiveness is.

I remember starting this month off by visiting the school for the first time. I was flabbergasted by the building. I thought this town had way too much money, and I thought every single person from this town was an ignorant rich person. Literally, that is what I thought. I really didn't understand what this town was about. It's just a normal town with normal people. I did not come from a mediocre town. I came from one of the worst towns in the state of Alabama. 

I think I like it here though.

Then there was the drama with Whitney this month. I had to learn how to trust her, which is something I didn't do very easily. After I opened up to her, a weight was lifted off of my shoulders. I think the reason why we are so afraid to be open with one another is because we are afraid of what the next person is going to think of us. We, as humans, need to get over that. Some people are going to judge us. We need to get over it. Remember, most people are going to hear our story and respect us for it. 

And it has been about seven weeks since I met my father for the first time. That's been messing with my head to the highest degree. Forgiveness is one of the hardest things you can do, especially when the outcome destroyed lives. Literally. What am I supposed to make of that? I'm trying to understand why he thought it would be okay to leave his two kids with a crazy drunk mother. I don't get that. He didn't even try. It's one thing that they had out us out of wedlock, but honestly, that wasn't the issue. The issue was that he just ran away from his mess, and now I'm trying to pick up the pieces. Somehow, I guess, it's going to be okay. I won't stop working on forgiving him.

I'm just amazed about how much I've changed in the last month.

On a lighter note, this is my last entry on this story because I keep each month of entries separate, but I will create a new story tomorrow. The title of next month's blog is For What It's Worth. I have my family from Alabama coming in to town tomorrow. If you read May's blogs, you may remember Aunt Heather and Uncle Tom. They have a daughter, Kari. Kari knows about me meeting my dad, but Heather and Tom do not. I have to tell them. Probably tomorrow. Read that entry. 

Next month is going to be really busy, so I may not produce the best content, which I'm sorry about. I will do my best to continue this everyday, but when you're a teacher and raising a nine-year-old on your own, life gets kind of crazy.

Thank you for reading this month. I've never gotten this many views in a month, and I am honored that y'all take the time to read this.