I took Axel out to walk around the entire layover, and I made sure he went to the bathroom and I fed him and gave him water and made sure he went to the bathroom again.
I haven't cried yet. I listened to Taylor Swift the whole plane, and I Almost Do is my favorite.
I felt physically sick the whole ride, so when we touch down in Sydney, I couldn't he happier.
I know Emily and Mum will be there with Ethan and Kendall. They left a week ago.
I have an empty coffee cup with too much to carry, so I put my phone in the cup and get off the plane.
It's been more than twenty four hours and my phone doesn't start going off with cell service.
I file off the plane with everyone else, carrying my things.
I've been wanting to throw this bloody cup hour for hours, so at the first sight of a trash, I toss it in, spotting my family across the way.
I walk over there.
My body feels numb.
I can hardly raise my voice above a whisper. One thought of Spencer and I will start crying.
I miss him.
I walk up to them.
"Oh darling," Mum leans in to hug me. I put my hands up.
"Don't. I'm fragile. You hug me and I cry."
She looks so upset as she nods.
So nobody touches me, and they continue talking.
I think they're just going to act like I'm not as breakable as a china doll with a hammer being swung into it.
We get my baggage and get in the car, and I'm just silent the entire ride.
The moment we arrive at Mum's, I take Axel out.
He goes both ways, and I just go into the back and throw the ball with him.
Last time I threw a ball to a dog, it was Jax.
I close my eyes.
Don't start, Audrey.
I will away the tears and keep playing with him until he's tired, and then I bring him inside and feed him and let him roam.
They're all in the kitchen.
I just walk in there and sit down.
I reach for my purse to dig my phone out.
Maybe he tried to call me or something.
My phone isn't in here.
I check all my things, and then I remember I put my phone in the cup, and the cup in the trash.
With my phone inside of it.
I'm going to die of a broken heart.
They try to talk to me but my voice is low and I answer slowly, and it's like I literally can't talk any higher.
I stand up.
"I'm going to sleep." I mumble, walking slowly upstairs.
As I crawl in bed, I know I'm going to die alone.
I decide to be okay with that, I think, as I drift off to sleep.
Spencer
I hate myself.
I hate myself so much. I went back to her house the next morning and the door was locked, but the Jeep was there.
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Trying Hard to Ignore You
Teen FictionAudrey Robbins is somebody how has struggled to find love. When she did, she thought it was too good to be true. After her fiancé cheats on her, she takes off, leaving California to go to her brothers house in Florida. When her plane gets delayed fr...