Trying Hard to Ignore You

Reception

I miss Spencer. Dad, Emily, Ethan and I all flew out to Australia to see the house we used to live in and just have memories. We went to the zoo I went to as a child and we went to the house and I have a lot of my memory back. Dad got Mum banned from the states.

It's late September. We're flying back in tomorrow, two days before the wedding and I can only see Spencer at the rehearsal dinner at his parents house.

We argued for two months over a house until we found one.

I didn't hate it but Spencer was so in love with it, so we bought it and had a pool installed.

Before I left, we moved all our things in it and he's staying at his parents until I get back. I'm staying at Dad's and getting ready a Dad's.

We're going on a honeymoon to Hawaii and I'm really excited. We're getting married and having the reception in the state room in Albany, and we both agreed we didn't want to spend our wedding night on a plane so we got a really nice hotel in the same place we're getting married.

I'm so fucking nervous for Saturday.

It's Thursday here, but Wednesday at home. When we get home, it will be Friday at home and Saturday here.

Spencer and I won't see each other at all the day of the wedding. We can't even text..

The dress is ready and hanging up in one of Dad's guests rooms, the flowers are getting delivered the day before.

We're on the plane now, and I'm bouncing my knee anxiously. Dad is sitting next to me. Kendall had the baby, a beautiful boy that they named, George after Spencer's middle name, because he's the one that talked them into having a baby.

Me, Emily, Ethan, Kendall, and the baby are staying with Dad. My Grandparents will be there the morning of the wedding, and we have a person coming to do everyone's hair and makeup.

"You're freaking out about the wedding again." Dad says without looking up from his magazine. I look at him.

"I'm terrified." I whisper. I got glasses and contacts, glasses because I couldn't see, and when I put them on, I got contacts to wear at the wedding because I want to see Spencer perfectly.

Spencer ended up needed glasses too and he got glasses and contacts also.

"Why?" Dad looks up from his magazine.

"What if he cheats on me? What if he's cheating on me now? What if he doesn't show up?"

"None of those things are going to happen." He says calmly. "You already know that."

I do know that. I nod, but I keep bouncing my knee anxiously.

"I hope." I mumble.

***

That was the worst plane ride I've had in my life. The moment we land I have to rush to get dressed in a white sundress for the reception. I curl my hair and put on makeup, and then we all rush out, Kendall having stayed at my Dad's house with George while we were away.

We pull up at the state room and rush inside.

I haven't seen Spencer in a week. He's already here in jeans and a button down, talking to some of his old friends.

I walk in and go right over to him, ignoring all of the guests. I tap his shoulder. He turns around.

"Jules!" He yells, picking me up, kissing me, spinning me. Laughing, I try to kiss him back, but I can't.

The guests are watching but I couldn't care less. After a moment, he sets me down and keeps kissing me.

"I missed you so much." He says, kissing me a few more times. He pulls away though, smiling, brushing my hair back.

"I missed you too." I grin.

All my anxiety is gone now that I'm in his arms.

"Mom said we have to greet people." He says.

"Okay." I say.

So we go around and greet everyone, and then we do the rehearsal, going over what we have to do for the ceremony. Spencer just has to stand there and look pretty.

We have it so Kendall and Will go first, and then Noah and Emily go, and then I go with my Dad.

The last time I reach Spencer, Noah shouts, "Kiss the bridge!"

Spencer grabs me, bending me, and kisses me. Everyone is laughing and clapping and cheering. After a moment he pulls away, picks me up and throws me over his shoulder, and runs out of the building.

We all go to his parents house for the dinner and we're standing around and joking and I'm getting married tomorrow, so I'm nervous.

Everyone is laughing and having a good time around the fire.

"It's 11:55!" Noah shouts. "You guys need to move! Now!"

Everyone scrambles to their feet, and we thank them and go outside. I'm leaving.

Everyone is waiting around for Dad to get me in the car. It takes three minutes.

All 11:58, I reach for the handle of the car.

"Wait." Spencer catches my hand. I turn to him. He kisses me softly, passionately.

"11:59!" Noah says impatiently.

Spencer pulls away.

"I'll see you at the alter." He murmurs, brushing my hair back. "I love you, Jules.

"Okay." I say, biting my lip. "I love you too."

He opens the door for me, kissing my cheek.

I look at him one last time and get in the car.

The moment Spencer shuts the door, Dad shoots down the street.

After a few seconds, Emily breaks the silence.

"You're getting married and having sex today."

Shit.