My Killer Girlfriend

Chapter 14

   I stayed with Lexi for two weeks, only leaving to get her better food, and occasionally, some flowers to try and cheer her up.  The doctors wanted to make sure she was mentally, and physically well before they released her.  They had assumed that it was a normal suicide attempt, which was fine by us, the last thing we needed was more attention.

   The whole time she was in the hospital I never asked her what happened that night.  I could tell something was still bothering her.  I just tried to comfort her as best I could, but whatever it was it was effecting her.

   She wasn't as happy and chipper as she usually was, and it was driving me crazy.  I just wanted to help her, to make her better, but I couldn't.  I couldn't do anything to make her feel better, it was killing me.

   "Well, looks like you are all set, and we better not see you back here anytime soon young lady."  The doctor flicks her finger at Lexi and chuckles.   "Thanks for everything doc."  I say grabbing Lexi's hand to lead her out of the hospital for the first time in weeks.

  I keep a firm hold on her hand as we walk out into the parking lot.  I look over to see he smiling widely at me.  "What?" I say.  "I don't know what I would do without you."  She holds her smile and squeezes my hand tighter.  "Kill a lot of people, you would kill A LOT of people without me."  She giggles and let's out a breath.  I can tell she is still tired.

   I open the car door to let her in, she climbs in and lays her seat back.  I get in the driver's seat and start the car.  "You know you don't have enough time to nap before we get home right princess?"  I say quietly.  "I know, I just need to rest my eyes" she says, already half asleep.  "Ok beautiful."

   I pull out of the hospital and drive us home.  I pull in front of our apartment building and shut the car off.  I sit in silence for a moment, then I reach over and squeeze her hand.  I lay in the car with her.

   I wake up to the sound of her voice.  "Baby,  baby, get up, let's go in."  We get out of the car and head into the apartment building.  I fumble with the keys to the apartment for a moment before Lexi stops me.  She points to a small card posted on our door.  It reads (Detective Johnson--BPD).  There is a phone number and a note scribbled below it "Call me, ASAP."  I sigh and shake my head, we'll deal with that in the morning...that is definitely a morning problem.  I unlock our door and we both waddle to the bedroom, we plop down in each other's arms and snuggle close.

  I feel Lexi, shaking in my arms, and I here a gentle sobbing coming from her.  "Lexi?  What's wrong baby girl?  What's going on with you lately?"  I say concerned.  She answers me between sobs.  "I can't do it Luke...I can't kill anymore...I can't...I can't hurt people anymore.  It hurts me though, I can't kill without thinking of you, and I can't be with you without thinking of killing!  What's wrong with me!?!"

    She grabs the back of my shirt tightly and presses her face into my shoulder.  She lets out deep sobs and I stroke her hair to comfort her.  "Lexi, listen, you are getting better...we can do this baby, together?"  I say reassuringly.   She looks up at me, still crying "You really think so?" She says quietly.  "Of course, but first you have to tell me what is making you feel this way?  What changed babe?"

   She cries for a while, and I don't rush her, I just hold her close and gently stroke her hair.  She eventually stops crying and pulls away from me slightly.  Then she begins to speak. 

   "The other day, I felt an urge again, it hadn't been a full month but I had to go.  So I did, I cornered this girl in an alley, and I was going to do it...I was going to kill her, but I saw her cowering their...and all I could think of was you... could I do that to you?  Am I that much of a monster?  You have been nothing but nice to me, I love you with all that is left of my sick, twisted heart.  Maybe some of the people I am hurting are like that to other people... maybe someone needs them as bad as I need you...who am I to take that away from them..."

    She stops talking and stares into the distance.  "So you?..."  I say hopefully.  "I killed her."  She says harshly.  I lower my eyes as I begin to understand.  "No witnesses." I say.  She follows "No witnesses."