I LOVED YOU FIRST- an AU ft. GOT7 Yugyeom (xreader)

Chapter 20

Or maybe not.

It's been a month since the holding hand moment, while it's been a week since Jinyoung said we're better off as friends.

Okay, I don't know how to talk to drunk people so maybe I shouldn't.

Ah, of course. The legendary seriousness.

This is so frustrating!

Ah, of course. True friends will slap reality to your face.

I swallowed hard. This is the first time he cussed like that. I'm used to Dessa's vulgar language but for Yugyeom to be like this while talking to me? This is a first.

Well, maybe it's my fault. I compared them. Even I don't want to be compared to other people. But still.

I close my eyes.

He said I'm not hard to love. He said that he loved me before. Does that mean someone else can also love me? Can someone else also see me the way he did? I don't even like myself. Will someone else be able to care for me the way Yugyeom did?

It's scary. The thought that there's no one like him scares me. Look at what Jinyoung did. He made me feel like he loves me, even more than how Yugyeom did. But in the end, they were all lies. I can't help but think that what Yugyeom felt for me before is so much better because until now, he's still by my side, caring for me in a way only he can.

And maybe that's what I'm more afraid of. I'm scared to find someone who will love me like how he did before. Then history repeats itself and that person leaves me too. I don't think I can take it anymore.