I LOVED YOU FIRST- an AU ft. GOT7 Yugyeom (xreader)

Yugyeom's Journal

5-25: Yerin came over to visit my sister. I was so embarrassed because she saw me on my just-woke-up state. I quickly went back to my room and fixed myself. I talked to her for a while and asked for her number so we can hang out sometime. She's so pretty.

6-7: Yerin agreed to date me! It's awkward because she's older than me and I feel like I'm lacking. But she said I look older anyway, because of my height. She's such a great girl!

6-12: Great. This Jungkook guy suddenly showed up. I know Yerin's pretty so there will always be guys around her. But it's hard because the Jungkook guy is her best friend back in high school and I can see something in his eyes.

6-15: Why did I even think of giving her flowers? I should've just bought chocolates. She looks happier when that Jungkook gave her a cheap choco drink. I like choco drinks too! I have lots of them here! She can have all of them!

6-16: Finally, I'm back! I had to stay for six months at the hospital because of this damn sickness. I miss my old classmates but my current ones doesn't seem too bad. The girl sitting beside me is a bit snobbish but she's actually pretty smart. Her friend on the other side is too talkative. Guess that's how they get stuck together.

6-21: I got busy with school. Good thing my seatmate, Y/N, is pretty cool. She explains to me whatever I don't get. I just try to study instead of thinking of that Jungkook and his tricks.

6-22: Yerin made up to me because she's always with her best friend. I thought she completely forgot she's dating me.

6-28: Yerin chose me! That Jungkook guy is planning to ask her out but dude, get in line. I got there first!

6-29: With just an 'I love you', she lets go? That's it? She's done? What, I'm just some guy she played along with until her best friend tells her he loves her? How dare her play with my feelings? God, I don't want to cry in front of my friends but she said it while we're hanging out. I had no choice but to leave. I quickly went home to find a distraction.

7-1: Yerin texted me to say sorry.

7-4: Yerin explained everything to me. It's not like I can force her to choose me anyway. I understand but still, it hurts.

7-8: Didn't know Y/N is funny. And cute. I saw her eating a bag full of gummy worms during class.

7-10: I keep on thinking for good jokes. It's hard to make Y/N laugh because she pretends my jokes are funny.

7-15: Should I take voice lessons? Puberty forgot my voice. I still sound like a kid.

7-19: Yerin visited my sister because she and Jungkook has a problem. Just wow.

7-21: I waited for what Y/N will say about Yerin. Cute? She's actually the cute one.

7-23: Her smile is so pretty.

7-25: Why is Y/N so smart? Especially in English. I'm having trouble in it but it's like she's born with English speaking abilities.

7-29: My sister said that Jungkook is leaving. So?

7-31: Why do I feel nervous to even just look at Y/N?

8-5: Those guys! They kept on asking me why I feel shy whenever Y/N is around. Of course, I am because she's like out of our league, you know. She's pretty and smart and just perfect.

8-11: This is all my fault. She doesn't talk to me anymore because I don't even try to look at her. I was so worried when she spilled her drink but she didn't want my help.