Ashes [Haylor AU]- Smoke Sequel

Chapter 19

Chapter 19:

Taylor's POV

"He isn't back yet. he told me he'd be back at nine," I say into the phone.

"He must be with his dad. Don't worry Taylor," Ellie reassures me.

She had called me about twenty minutes ago. It was already ten thirty and Harry hadn't returned home. I was worried that something wrong had happened with his dad. That he had gotten himself into trouble, per usual. But I had kept myself from calling him because that was what always caused us to have big blow out fights when he got home.

"I'll let you get some rest. Don't worry Tay. I assure you Harry is fine,' She tries to comfort.

"Thanks Ellie. I'll call you tomorrow," I promise.

After all of this we hang up and I am left alone to hear the rain crash down onto the roof of my apartment. It had been pouring, making me more anxious for Harry to come home. Where was he and what could be doing right now? I just needed to escape my thoughts but I didn't know how. I gave up drinking a few years back because it never really numbed the pain and when I thought it did I ended up regretting everything the next morning.

But for now I would just sit here and wait for Harry like I always have.

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I wake up in one of my frenzies. This time it was full blown screaming and gasping for air. I can feel myself begin to struggle in a strong pair of arms. The figure next to me was now alert and turning my face to face theirs.

"Baby," Harry says loudly, trying to snap me out of it.

I continue to claw and struggle in his arms. He must have carried me into bed with him when he got in early this morning. Harry smelled like a bar and I couldn't help but gag at the strong smell of cigarettes and cheap alcohol flood through my nose.

"Taylor," Harry's voice becomes stern.

"Where were you?" I choke out softly after he let me out of the grip.

"I went out," He admits.

"With who?" I ask turning to him.

"Jake and Cory," Was he really telling the truth.

"Jake and Cory? What?" I felt as if my mind was clouded.

"Yeah Jake is Irene's brother," Harry mentions softly.

"What?' I held my side as I slide down the side of the bed and onto the floor.

"Taylor," Harry says alarmed.

He rushes to my side and kneels infront of me.

"Taylor," He calls again as I cover my face with my hands.

"I don't.." I begin but I can feel my chest tighten in anger.

"It's ok. I'm sorry I should have called," He cooes.

"You say that everytime," I remind him.

He then grabs my four arms and hold me steady. I begin to sob again and he crawls next to me and pulls me into his lap.

"I messed up. I have no one to blame but myself. I have blamed others way too long and I am tired of doing that," He tells me.

I look up at him to see his green eyes looking softly at me. I can see the cloudy sky creep in my room from the window. It was most likely early morning. It was hot in the room though, or maybe it was just the tension in my mind playing a trick on me.

"I need to take a shower," I mention.

"Go ahead. I'll be here if you need anything,' He says.

I pull myself to my feet and stumble into my bathroom. I could smell Harry's dirty lingering scent in my hair and I needed to do anything to wash it out. I toss the clothes I slept in on the floor and jump into the hot water immediately. I run my fingers through my hair until it turns its natural curl again. It was weird to have short curly hair now. Good thing I owned a straightener.