Ashes [Haylor AU]- Smoke Sequel

Chapter 21

Chapter 21:

Songs for this chapter: Please Don't Leave Me by P!nk

Taylor's POV

 The water is up to my waist. I wade in the almost turqoise water in the hot sun. It was quiet, too quiet for what I am used to. I usually hear people screaming for me to look at the camera or telling me my stage direction as well as crowds screaming my name or singing along to my music. I am blessed to have most of that in my life but sometimes all you need is a little quiet.

"Hey," I giggle and turn around to face Harry after the cool water hits my back.

"Whatcha thinking about?" He asks playfully.

"The silence is nice," I remark.

"Right? I love this pool. It's so private," He mentions.

"Yeah and it's beautiful out here," I reply giving him a weak smile to go along with it.

He then walks toward me. His hands find their way to my hips. I look down at the water and one of his hands pushes my chin up. He then keeps it in his hand while my blue eyes meet his green ones.

"What's the matter?' He asks.

"Nothing. Just thinking," I say.

"I love you," The words resinate in me because it has been too long since I heard them come out of his mouth.

"Harry," I whisper, nothing else could come out.

"Too soon?" He asks, sounding hurt.

"I'm sorry. The only thing bothering me is the cheating and Heather. I trust you but not enough,' I bring up. Great I was going to start an argument with him and we've only been on vacation for a day and a half.

"I know I messed up but please let me in," He begs.

"I'm trying," I admit. I then gently remove his hand from my chin and swim to the edge of the pool.

"I don't know what else I could possibly do," He sighs and follows me.

I then grab my towel off of the lawn chair and wrap it around my body. I dry myself off and then my hair before opening the sliding door to go back inside. Harry follows me after wrapping the towel around his waist. over his swim shorts. 

"I need you to talk to me," He tells me as I dig through my suitcase.

"I know I just am having a hard time is all," I shake my head as I speak.

"I guess there's not much I can do," He replies.

"I want to be with you-" I begin but he cuts me.

"I'll never be good enough. I hav never been good enough. I am probably wasting my time," He snaps and then tosses one of his black t shirts on.

"Harry where are you going? That's not true," I tell him but it was too late. He was already out the door. Slamming it in my face like he always has.

*Harry's POV*

I didn't walk out of the room angry at her as it may have seemed. I just had an idea. I was frustrated and I needed a way to make her see that I was faithful and I had changed. Not many people do and I can see why she wouldn't think so but I could be considered an exception. I realized that I could never live without her.

I needed to get her something. Something that didn't mean anything wouldn't work. I needed something that would mean the world to her.

a letter.

The very thing that had gained her trust in the first place. I needed to write her a letter with all I needed to say to her and all that she should here. Taylor would never expect a letter from me, we hadn't written any since our highschool days.

"Excuse me sir, where is your nearest gift shop?" I ask the hotel lobby worker as soon as I make it to the main building.

"Yeah it should be a short walk. Keep walking left down this road and then you should see it," He informs me.

"Thank you," I say and walk out.

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I found a nice place to sit in a small cafe and begin to scrawl out the words I have been meaning to pour out to her:

Dear Taylor,

I know in the overall big picture I have messed up a great deal. You mean the abosolute world to me but that's not what you need to hear in order to trust me. You need to hear that I am going to man up and admit to everyone I know and tell that I love you. I don't do it enough or if at all. I never have, minus the boys. I never take pride or take care of you when we're in public. I have always taken advantage of you and I feel like such a jerk. That is what I need to say to you. I need to apologize for not taking care of you when I was suppose to. I dropped your fragilie heart in order to find a place for mine, when in all reality you were the one with place for it. I also close you out to my thinking and never give you what you need to know what I am feeling. I love you. I truly love you. Taylor you are my world and now that I have admitted my mistakes its time for me to really work on myself as a person and show you that we can be. That I am mature and ready enough to take care of you. These past couple of months have been long and you are slowly opening the doors again. I hope you now feel that you don't ever have to lock that door again, or better yet give me the key.

Love Harry.

After signing the letter I seal it into an envelope. I doubt Taylor is going to be happy when I return so I hope that when I return I can just hand her the letter and she could consider letting me back in.

"Taylor," I say as soon as I see her pass me.

She looks up at me from the table that she is sitting at.

"I thought no one would find me here," We both say in unison.

"I guess I should have assumed you would come to place like this," I say with a half laugh.

"I thought you were angry," She sounds hurt and I could tell the light hearted mood was dimished.

"I was...frustrated. Here," I tell her and give her the letter.

"What is this?" She now sounded confused. It was better than hurt.

"Just read it please," I say kind of embarrassed.

She takes a minute to read it. Her expression goes from concetrated to concerned. She looks up at me and begins to tear up.

"I don't know what to say," She replies after clearing her throat.

"I spent a few hours thinking about this. You don't have to do anything with it. Just know that it's all true and it was hard for me to admit," I say.

"Harry thank you," She tells me.

I then wipe some of the tears off of her face. She sniffles and smiles at me.

"Let me take you out tonight," I say.

She just nods and I pull her in for a hug.

"I love you," She tells me. The words electrify me because it had been way too long since those words have fallen from her mouth.

Omg there you go! I hope you guys liked it and thanks for reading. As usual votes and comments would really help. OH and if you hadn't checked out my preview to my next project called "Back For You' please do! It will be the next Haylor fic after this one :) so please go check it out and let me know what you think. Alright I'll try to update soon.

PS. Where We Are tour starts today I'm so exicted. New pictures and concert footage EEK. TO BAD they aren't coming back to Colorado :( so if you're going feel lucky lol.