Ashes [Haylor AU]- Smoke Sequel

Chapter 33

Chapter 33:

Songs for this chapter- Skinny Love by Bon Iver and All Too Well by Taylor Swift

Taylor's POV

"You're writing another one?' Gemma asks me.

I just nod in response as I seal the envelope and set it on top of the pile I had before. There were exactly thirty letters, one for each day of this month.

"He comes home today," She mentions.

"I know," I sigh.

She then gives me a sympathetic smile and walks out of the room. I was staying with my mother still and Gemma and Anne had been coming over in the last few days very frequently. I didn't mind because I enjoyed their company but it made me miss Harry even more. I had been writing letters since my encounter will Jake in order to empty out the leftover feelings that I had. They died once I got to about letter fifteen. There was no use in trying to change Harry or anything about our rleationship and I knew that now.

"You have to make your decision," My mother tells me as she bardges into my room.

"I need to talk to him. I want to do what's right for our daughter but I don't know if it's right for me," I say.

"It is a tough one, I know. When I divorced your father and gave Austin to your grandmother it wasn't easy," She admits.

"Nothing in life is as simple as it is in words," I reply.

"Isn't that why it's easy for you to write a song, the words come out right," My mom mentions.

"I suppose," I sigh.

She then leaves the room and I am still sitting at my desk. This room has been oh so familiar once again for the past few months, and all the memories from when I was a teenager just flood back. Most of them when I was with Harry. But now I spent most nights having strange dreams. The nightmares had evolved into dreams that didn't make sense half of the time. Sometimes they were scarier than nightmares because they were more realistic. But I never woke up screaming. That was what I feared of Harry's return. That they might comeback.

How could someone cause the pain and then save you from it? It always seemed like Harry was hurting me, yet he was the only one who could fix it all.

"we're going to the airport! Are you coming?" My mother calls.

"yeah," I finally say, although I didn't know if I should.

My mother then has me get into the car with her, Anne, and Gemma. I sit in the back with Gemma as our two mothers sit in the front.

"Harry and Niall are on the same flight. But Michelle is going to get Niall," I hear Anne explain to my mother.

"What are you going to do when you see him?" Gemma asks as I stare blankly out the window.

"I don't know. My head is spinning one hundred miles an hour. I'm so confused. Part of me wants to slap him and the other part wants to touch him and feel his body against mine," I explain.

"I didn't know it was that bad," She admits.

"It's not bad. I just don't know if I could trust him anymore," I sigh.

"Taylor, maybe he's one you need to take a chance on. My brother has messed up so much and I know i convinced you that both of you needed space..but I think this tour has given him time to think and he will be there as a father," She rants.

"I think so too, but then there's a part of me that thinks he is going to lie or leave," I can feel the lump in my throat as I say these words.

"Only time will tell, won't it?" She asks.

'You're right I suppose," I reply.

we then go silent and the only ones in the car speaking are my mother and Anne. After all these years and all Harry and I had been through they have been inseperable friends. They act as if time could not seperate them. I feel like I had some connection with Cher like that but my mom and Anne had been strong enough to deal with two on the edge kids and I gave them the credit they deserve for that.

We finally arrive at the airport and I can feel my chest tighten. It's been so long since I had seen Harry. we've had a few phone calls here or there. But I haven't been in his presence in a long time. I doubt he has even seen my growing belly with our daughter inside. We did agree to announce it to the public once he returned but it was going to be hard for me. If we didn't it would be worse in the long run due to how cruel the social world could be.

"It's fine. Breathe," Gemma reminds me as we walk down to baggage claim.

I can feel my heart stand still as soon as I see Harry and Niall standing together. It was if my body had stopped responding all together. He looked Tan and he had a large smile on his face as he and Niall joked.

"Harry," Anne calls and he turns to face us.

"Mom!" He gushes and then hugs her as she walks up to him.

Gemma has to pracitically pull me from the spot I was glued into the floor at. I take a deep breathe and walk over there. Harry then drops his mom out of the embrace and the whole expression on his face changes as he sees me. Anne steps out of the way and Harry walks over to me.

It is as if everyone around us had dissapeared and it was like we weren't even in the airport. He just takes in my appereance and everyone is dead silent around us. There is so much I would like to say but the words don't come out. I can feel my cheeks fluster.

"You look so beautiful," He says in awe. '

"Thank you," Was all I could manage.

He steps closer and places his hands on my belly. My hands immediately find their way to his forearm. He then looks at me with those intense green eyes.

"I've missed you,' His says firmly.

" I missed you too," I can feel the tears well in my eyes. I had never realized how much I did until he was standing right infront of me.

He then pulls me iin for an embrace. I wrap my arms around his body and cry into his shoulder. He rocks me back and forth for a minute and then pulls away. He wipes the tears from my eyes and then we decide we better go.

"Michelle just arrived," Gemma tells us.

We then watch the reunion between Niall and Michelle and it is just as sweet but less dramatic as ours.

After leaving the airport and getting back in the car I find myself sitting between Harry and Gemma. Harry and I do not speak on the ride home, and his mother asks him about the tour. He answers honestly as far as I could tell. He said his drinking had slowed because work had kept him busy and he and Cory had rebuilt their friendship while on the road.

As soon as we get back to my mother's apartment, Anne says she and my mother would like to chat before they leave. Gemma took her mother's car to get us lunch. Which meant Harry and were left alone.

"we need to talk," Harry demands as soon as he shuts the door to my bedroom.

"I know," I sigh.

He sits on the bed right beside me. I then look up at him and notice a few things I didn't earlier. He had a few more tattoos and his hair was a lot longer and tossed carelessly in a bandana. His face still held the same features that they did months ago, only did he look a lot more refreshed. 

"So we'll start with what I had seen on tour,' He says. 

I was nervous and even more shocked with the next few sentences that spilled out of his mouth. 

Sort of a cliffhanger. Sorry I've been having a writer's block for Ashes! But I now know what I want to do and I feel like I can wrap it up in the next few chapters. It's almost the end! I'll try to finish this before I leave this weekend! Thanks for reading and I hope you liked it. Votes and comments as always would be peaches.