I was on my way to Frank's house since today was Friday which meant hangout-day! All my friends, Mikey, Ray, Gerard, and Frank would meet up at each other's houses every Friday no matter what. This Friday happened to be the day we met up at Frank's house. I was super excited to see Mikey cause well.. I've had a crush on him for the longest time, ok?
When I arrived I heard children shouting along with my friends. I knocked three times and stepped in since the door was unlocked. The scene was disastrous. Four little children ran around while Frank, Mikey, Ray, and Gee tried to catch them. Oh yeah, Frank has a little sister named Taylor and I guess her friends came over? All I knew was that I hated kids. Hate them.
"What is going on?!?" I screamed, everyone froze and looked at me as I closed the door behind me. "Taylor almost ruined my guitar with her nail polish!!" Frank whined quite childlike. I rolled my eyes and walked up to Taylor. "Taylor, what were you trying to do?"
"Frank wouldn't let me watch the tv!"
"Taylor! I'll have you know," I leaned down and whispered, "I'm about to make cookies in a few minutes but!! You can only have them if you say sorry and be a good girl." I shrugged with an encouraging look and winked.
"Frank... I'm," Taylor let out a sigh and continued, "sorry, ok?" I smiled and looked around. "Well, Mikey can you get me one of those candies off the coffee table?" He nodded and got me one. "Here!" I said, offering the candy to Taylor. "Why don't I get one?!" One of the other stupid kids said. God I hate kids. "Cause you didn't do anything to earn it, shape up kid." I said as I walked to the kitchen.
I took out my cooking supplies and Mikey came in whisper screaming. "What was that?! How did you do that?!" I laughed. "Well, I just.. I don't know! I guess it's just common sense to bribe children?" He laughed and hugged me. "Oh yeah, I missed your hugs!" I hugged back and he chuckled. I think I enjoyed it way more than he did.
About an hour later I was finished with the cookies and I called all the children, including the boys, to come into the kitchen. They all arrived sort of confused looking. "Sit!" I said, pointing to the dinner table. They shrugged and got seated as I made their plates with two cookies and a glass of milk;) "Ok guys, I got all of your plates so hold on a bit."
I finally got all of their plates down and sat down with just a glass of water in front of me. I couldn't have those cookies cause... I just couldn't so I continued to drink my water. "Shouldn't you be eating?" Mikey said.
"Shouldn't you be at church?" I had him there cause Mikey and Gee's normal church days were Friday. "Y/n, just take one cookie."
"I can't ok? Just leave it at that."
"Just tell me why." He persisted. I glared at him and mouthed later.
Everyone was finished with their cookies so I took it upon myself to do the dishes. Suddenly I felt two arms wrap around my waist and jumped. I turned around to see it was just Frank. "You know you didn't have to do the dishes right, Mom?" I laughed at his nickname for me and put my head back. "Well I couldn't just leave all those dishes for you, I would feel bad!" He pat my shoulders and grinned. "Don't feel bad, it's fine but they guys and I need you." I got kind of nervous as he pulled me downstairs to his room in the basement.
I got downstairs and sat on his bed as Mikey sat on the side of me, Ray and Frank on the floor in front of me, and Gerard sat in the spinny chair on the other side of me. "So, how come you wouldn't eat downstairs? This isn't just a one time thing either, we've all seen your eating habits and you.. don't eat that much at all lately." Mikey said. I sighed in defeat. "I can't tell-"
"Y/n you're full of shit. You know you can tell us! We've all been friends for eight years." Ray said bravely.
"Guys.. I just don't like how.. I look and I thought that maybe.. if I got skinny, I would like myself better." No one knew what to say. "Y/n... why?" Gerard said as he put a hand on my shoulder.
"Cause you know I look horrible! All of you guys do!!" I stared to cry and covered my face with my hands. I fell to the side and leaned on Mikey.
"When did you start uh.. starving yourself?" Mikey whispered. I looked up trying to recall the first time I started. "About three weeks ago and I've lost seventeen pounds..." Mikey gasped and I sobbed again.
"Y/n, you don't need to starve, you look perfect. Not just fine, you look perfect, ok?" Frank said. I looked up and he nodded. "Thanks I guess." I mumbled and looked into my lap, my fat lap. I knew I couldn't stop but I would fake it just for these guys. I guess they didn't see what I saw.
After all that, we decided to go to a restaurant. Yikes! We went to this breakfast diner place with tons of different pancakes. Ray was super excited cause he was strangely obsessed with pancakes. I laughed at the thought. "What are you laughing at?" Ray said. He sat on the side of me and Gee on the other. "You!" I laughed. He shook his head and put his arm around me, "You're something, Y/n Y/l/n.. really something." We both laughed at that.
Once we got to the diner a wave of dizziness washed over me. I hadn't eaten anything since two days ago and I planned to eat tomorrow because I didn't want to ruin my 72hr fast. I lost my balance a little but kept walking. "Whoa, you ok?" Frank said as he grabbed my shoulders to balance me out. "Yeah I just was daydreaming." I put on a fake smile and shook him off my shoulders. We all sat down at a table and everyone ordered. I ordered a strawberry and cream pancake with a glass of water.
Our food finally came back and everyone dug in.. everyone except me. I stared at my food in disgust. Just look at how many calories are in it!! "You have eat, Y/n." Mikey said sternly. He was like my older brother in a way but I've always wanted him to be more than that. "Yeah, yeah I'm eating." I stuck my fork in my pancake and took a bite. It's wasn't that bad besides the horrid fat I was going to gain. I had an idea so I just kept eating my pancake.
I had almost finished my whole pancake and the guys looked at me with proud expressions. "Don't you feel good?" Gerard said smiling hopefully. "Yeah of course.. except for my bladder that's about to explode! I gotta pee!!" I laughed and went to the bathroom. Once I got into the stall I threw up my meal. Good thing I didn't actually digest that food.
I finally finished puking up my guts and walked out of the bathroom to see Mikey with a very stern look on his face. "I heard you puking." He said slyly, "I will not sit by you with an empty stomach! You look amazing and don't need to change! Stop starving yourself and eat some damn food... I don't want you to get hurt." There were tears in his eyes and I could tell that what I was doing was breaking him. I felt horrible. I went up to him and gave him the biggest hug I could. "I care about you Y/n and-" he sobbed and then continued. "I can't have you getting hurt cause I.. love you ok?" I never thought he would feel the same way as I did.
I kissed him and thankfully he kissed back with no hesitation. The kiss wasn't forced, it was real and soft, but it ended all too soon. When we pulled away Mikey smiled at me weakly. "Can you please start eating again?" I put my head on his chest, "I think I can, Mikey. You make me feel special.. I mean you make me feel beautiful." He lifted my chin and kissed me once more. "That all I ever wanted to do." He whispered.
A/N: it was really hard writing this one cause I had know idea what to write about, dumb writers block y'know. Anyways I really hope you enjoyed!
Stay safe, killjoys!
xxxxx
P.S, Fall Out Boy is releasing something cool soon... idk what yet but I know it's gonna be big! Just a heads up for my youngbloods out there ;)
