Damon's Desire. Santana's Desire. Fanfic Book Series 1.

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Damon's Desire

Chapter 7

My own worst enemy

It has been a few days since I seen or called Jaysi. I wasn't planning to see her again. I suppose I was scared or something close to it. I felt pain from a female and I am not going in a serious relationship. I have seen Stefan and Elena go through things I don't plan on going through. Not to mention Caroline and Matt.

When did I become weak?  All the tough talk but I do have a lot of guilt bottled inside. I slept with her, had her falling for me then I leave and never tell her why. I didn't have any reason why. The small reason I did have was ridiculous.  I was doing well enough with the blood thing and haven't killed lately.

I went home and filled up my stock of blood. I changed my blood from the fridge to the basement. I got a freezer and filled it to the brim. Not that I planned to have non-compelled women over. It was just too risky having it in the fridge.  I walked around my house and began feeling that ache in my chest. It was as if I was hungry but already ate. It felt like I was being attacked by an enemy but I appeared safe.

I needed to talk to someone. Not just anyone that would listen and tell others what I was feeling. I needed someone I could trust. I had no one like that. Every one had an issue with my past. The list was huge of the people I disappointed.  

Elena, taunting and teasing. On both sides.  Stefan, not even close. He would tell Elena and Rick. Rick, he would probably laugh and get pleasure out of it. I killed him before, turned his ex wife, Elena's mother.  Jeremy, I killed him too. I also turned his girlfriend. Tyler, no dog can know anything about love. He is a wolf, I am a vampire and he can one day use it as a weakness. That leaves Matt and Jenna. Matt I almost did his mom, did his girlfriend, turned his sister. He is under some type of compulsion.

Maybe it would work. Jenna, she is a woman, married to Rick, Elena's aunt, she pretends to like me. I don't know how much she would tell Rick. I don't want him knowing anything. I don't want Caroline knowing anything either. She isn't even on Elena's good side. Then there is Bonnie. Bonnie? Just maybe I could talk to her. She hates me but love is something she thinks I cannot get. Maybe if I tell her and she see's I'm serious she will get off my back about the past. I moved out of town for crying out loud.  I was not sure where she was living. I know her man works as a garbage man. She is a teacher. I could visit her at school.  

I had a drink and thought deep about it. Bonnie, Jenna or Matt. I chose not to have any kind of talk with Matt. He wasn't right in the head at the moment.  

I dialed Jenna's number.

"Hello, Jenna here." She said all prissy.

"Yes it's Damon. Listen are you alone?" I asked trying to sound prissy too.

"Why? Are you hiding some where?" She asked.

"Not yet. I was wondering if you were busy. If we can meet tonight like right now tonight?" I asked her.

"I don't think so Damon. Rick wouldn't want me to. Tell you the truth I wouldn't either." Jenna admitted.

"Wow. I'm not going to try anything. I actually needed to talk. It's fine. I will scratch you off the list. Thanks again." I hung up.

I swiped through my phone looking for someone else. I passed by Jaysi' number. I stared at it until my phone faded.

I continued looking for someone else. I saw Jeremy and Bonnie. I called Jeremy.

"J here." He said.

"It's so cool how you all answer your phones these days." I said sarcastically.