Corbyns pov
I tell them I don't want to talk about it. It's embarrassing that Danny and Shay even saw me cry. I don't care that much. I mean they are my best friends. I don't even want to get up today. It hurts a lot and I don't know how to cope. In one of our songs, Never Know, one of Daniels lines was "Don't hold on the pain, let it go." The point is I can't let go. I didn't cheat on Christina. Shays just a friend. I love Christina. She's my girl. Well. Was. It's hard to believe she's not mine anymore. I'm wake I know that. It's just I have to urge to get up. My everything hurts. It hurts a lot.
So I go on my phone for a while. A few tears leaving my eyes and down my face but I quickly wipe them away. I was too deep in my thoughts to realize where I was. I remember falling asleep in Danny's arms when he came and heard me crying. He must have put my in what looks like Shays room. Just a lucky guess. The bed sheets are pink and it's a typical girls room. I know this because of Christina. I look for my phone. Damn it's in the kitchen. Shays digital clock says 7AM so I'm not sure who's up. So I just get out of bed.
I'm a little dizzy from crying so hard. When I reach the kitchen I grab my phone and slide it into my hoodie pocket. Then I grab a cup of water. It feels so weird going down my throat but it's soothing. I hear small footsteps and look up. One of the only people to know what happened. Danny. I concentrate on his concerned expression but my concentration was interrupted by another smaller set of footsteps. Shay. I try and give them both a convincing smile but failed. I give up and take another sip of water. Daniel sits to my right and Shay his other side. They both wait for me to start.
Me~ "I'm fine." I single year starts to fall but I smoothly catch it without them seeing. Failing again Daniel puts his hand on my thigh. I look back up again.
Daniel~ "Its ok to not be ok sometimes Corbyn. We know you love her. It's alright." As I started crying he pulls me into a hug. Shay switches to behind me standing. She plays with my hair in a comforting way. I'm shaking by now and I can't stop. They just quietly shush me and calm me down a little. Daniel pulls away once he hears me quiet down a little.
A couple of minutes later Jonah wakes up and insists that we go home since we need to eat and stuff. Maybe record a mashup. To be honest, that's not what I want to do. Shay agrees to let us go caused by her meetings today. She says goodbye to all the boys as they head out the door. Leaving me and her alone Jonah leaves as well after a "look" from Shay to. The engulfs me in a hug and pats my back. I hug her back of course.
Shay~ "If you ever need anything Corbs you have my number. I'm so sorry about her. I'm always here ok?" I nod and she lets go. I mutter a goodbye and get in the car. Jack and Zach have been giving Jonah and Daniel questioning looks since they woke up to the state I've been in. Jonah and Daniel obviously don't want to say it out loud. When Jonah thinks I'm not listening, he whispers to Zach "when we get home." Daniel does the same and the younger boys quiet down. I plug in the extra earbuds Jonah has in the backseat for us to my phone and drown out my depressing thoughts.
We pull into our house and i immediately, slowly, get out of the car. Jonah unlocks the house and I just go to my room. I'm extremely exhausted. I fall asleep as soon as my head hits the bed.
Daniels pov
I hate seeing Corbyn like this. It pains me to watch him be depressed. I've only once seen Corbyn like this when I almost died. That was it. Christina really got him good. Almost like she shot him but didn't kill him and now he's just suffering with a bullet stuck in his heart that he can't quite reach.
We get home and Corbyn hasn't said a thing all morning but "im fine". All he did was cry. I'm sure his mind has said it all. He goes to his room still mute. I look to Jonah who had been told, by Shay, the whole thing. He looks down. Zach is pestering him now that Corbyn is upstairs. Jack starts to do the same to me. It's kind of adorable. We go inside and Jonah starts on waffles for breakfast. Me, Zach, and Jack it on the couch as I tell them quietly what happened last night. They know about the arguing but I guess they must have thought they would make up. Not the other way around. They sympathize and we enter the kitchen once called for waffles. Jonah hands me two plates and I don't even have to ask. I set my own down and take the others to Corbyn. I knock on his door but no answer to I peek in. He's sleeping. He looks uncomfortable so I set the plate down and take his phone to put on his charger. I smile at my best friend but soon frown. I pull a blanket over his shivering cold body and a pillow under his head. I leave the waffles and close the door. Once I'm downstairs I tell the boys not to bother him. They nod knowingly so we just finish our breakfast in mostly silence. Zach soon grows tired of the quiet.
Zach~ "What are we doing today?" He gets a tad bit excited. Jonah frowns.
Jonah~ "Zach, dear, it's just going to be another chill day. Corbyns not well and we must take care of him. If he wants to do something later than we can do that. Otherwise we can just loaf around." He finishes and takes another fork full of waffle. Jonah cuts his up like I do while Jack and Zach just eat their waffles kind of like a taco. It makes me and Jonah laugh. I like watching Jonah laugh at zach. There's love in his eyes. I wonder what my eyes look like when I look at jack. Probably the same because there's no denying my love for him. It's soothing to the mind to think what he thinks sometimes. That sounds confusing but not really. After waffles we start on a movie. Harry Potter to be specific. To be even more specific, Harry Potter and the Sorcerers Stone. Jonah wanted to watch it and he was pretty happy about it so we agreed. Hey, the younger boys might like it. He starts the movie and then rushes over to the couch where he was immediately attached to Zach. I smile at them as Jack looks up at me. He motions me to come closer. He kisses my cheek and whispers,
Jack~ "We're cuter baby." I blush at his words. He's never called me babe or anything else, including baby. I nod and he puts his face in my neck and focuses on the screen. I soon do the same. I watch as the young British boy gets on the train. I've seen this movie before but I didn't want to ruin it for Jonah. Speaking of Jonah he's being bombarded with questions from Zach, he's happy to answer them but soon gets annoyed. I giggle at the funny 16 year old brunette.
Right around when Harry gets sorted into Gryffindor, Corbyn walks down the stairs softly. You can physically see and hear his feeling of pain. His eyes are the reddest they've ever been but also covered in a glossy top coat of tears. I look at him while the boys are focused on the movie. I motion him to come and sit down and he obeys. He wipes the final remainders of tears and sits down. He curls into a little ball and covers up with a blanket. I can see him trying to focus on the movie but is failing miserably. He soon just lays down and tries to sleep. I look down at him and brush the hair off his face that's a little damp of sweat but I didn't mind. I lower myself to his level and Jack moves to my other side.
Me~ "Corbyn did you eat your breakfast?" He shakes his head softly.
Me~ "Aren't you hungry?" He repeats the motion.
Me~ "Corbyn you need to eat. You'll get sick." He ignores me and I look at him sympathetically but he can't see as his eyes are closed. I will make him eat later. For now he must sleep. I rub his back and he moves closer to me. Jack whips his head and glares at me. I give him a "Stop being jealous he's sad" look and he looses up. Understanding Corbyns state he turns back to the television as the young boy moves frantically around his dorm room on the screen. I'm not paying much attention anymore as I'm more concerned about my friend. I soon hear soft snores and cover his feet with the blanket. I kiss my hand and put it to his forehead. I feel so bad for him. I honestly do. I wish he didn't have to go though this.
Jacks pov
Daniel walks in the room and lays on his bed. I'm so confused. I'm laying down facing him. He thinks I'm sleeping. I peek an eye open. He's just sitting there, his eyes open not focusing on anything. Damnit. He's thinking again.
Authors note
Sorry for all the sadness but it'll get better soon I promise. Tanks for the feedback lovies!❤️
