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by lovejjong

by lovejjong

It blew up.

At one moment they were laughing together; the next, they were ignoring him. Soraru was confused, when he reached the cafeteria to find no traces of Lon and Suzumu at their usual table. He glanced around, and caught Lon's eyes, before she dropped them. They were sitting far away, in a full table, and Soraru's idiotic legs brought him to where they were sitting.
"Hey." His voice sounds too high, too desperate. "Do you have a free space?" He asked, and Suzumu glanced at him before returning to his conversation with a guy next to him. The raven-haired male felt stupid all of a sudden, as he was too stunned to even move. Lon ignores him, but he spots a glint of guilt in her eyes. "Lon-" "-there isn't any space, couldn't your eyes see? Or are you too blind?" Suzumu cuts in, his eyes meeting with Soraru's, before he tsked. "You're too fat anyway- I'm sure you don't need to eat." Lon's eyes widens, and she whipped her head to look at Suzumu, whom just smirked, knowing that his blow had hit the spot.
The bread Soraru was holding fell to the floor, as he backed away slowly. From the indifferent Suzumu and the shocked Lon. He blinks back tears, and turned away, running to exit of the cafeteria. The roaring in his ears became louder, and his eyesight blurred as he stumbled to the toilets.

He hid in the toilets, knees drawn up to his chest as he rocked himself back and forth. Tears fell freely from his eyes as he rethink about the situation- as he tried to remember what had he done wrong.

Nothing. Except the accursed post.

They must have seen it.

He stared at the door blankly, not even caring about the tears streaking down his face. A thousand scenarios courses through his mind, each and every one of them ending up with him, alone and unwanted. The post wasn't meant for them, not in general, but they must have thought differently.

Gods, I'm so dumb!

Soraru wiped his eyes using his hands harshly, before taking his phone out with shaking hands. He deleted his post, lips quivering, when he beheld the people that liked it before his finger pressed down on the delete button.

suzumu0-0, lon1110 and 67 others liked your post!

He deleted the post, his heart hardening. It hurts. His friends' betrayal- no, refusal to even try and listen to him- the toxic words that spilled out from Suzumu's lips- it all fucking hurts. Soraru's head started to pound, and he took his wallet out after pocketing his phone.
He picked out a small razor hidden in the zipper of his wallet. The blade catches the light in the bathroom, making it glint.

Soraru did not think it thoroughly when he dug the razor deep into his skin, slicing the already bloodied skin over and over. The pain his head cleared, before returning in all its glory. Sorry whimpered, dropping the razor on the floor as he curled into himself even more, muttering foul, poisonous words that sunk into his skin as painfully as the razor had dug into his skin.

a/n : i update this so much because im suffering from a bad case of writer's block for the other stories
-aru