His parents arrived after a few minutes just as Hashiyan had predicted. Neru was the first in the room, rushing towards Soraru and pulling him up into a huge hug. The younger winced softly, pushing him off, but Neru did not let him go, crushing him harder against his own body. "nii-san, I'm fine," Soraru finally gasps out, and Neru let him go, collapsing on the chair. The younger took the time to actually look at his brother, and with no small amount of surprise, realized that the man had grown even thinner and tired. "are you okay?" he mutters, and Neru nods, his eyes welling up with tears. "I'm fine now, baby brother," he replies, and glared at Soraru. "don't you scare me like that ever again!" he exclaims, his cheeks flushing red. Soraru nods, and turned towards his parents.
"mom. dad." the words had the two adults rushing towards him, and pulling him into yet another hug. His mother was crying, his dad holding back tears. When Soraru was released from their hug, he leaned back against the bed and pulled the covers up. "don't scare us like that. You know how scary it was to open your son's door, and realized that he is on the floor, bleeding out?" his father mutters, but his eyes are lined with silver as he looked at Soraru. The young patient sighs, and looked down at his hands. "no, I promise I won't do it again," he replies, and his mother pressed a kiss to his forehead. "we love you, you know that, right?" she whispers, and Soraru nods, his cheeks wet. "I love you guys too," he whispers, and bowed his head. he felt the weight of his family members' gaze on him, and closed his eyes.
I'm just not strong enough to love myself.
**×*×*×*×*×**
Soraru tucked his chin under the covers as he stared blindly at the ceiling. It had been two hours since his family left, and an hour since dinner had been served. He managed down a few bites before the urge to vomit rises, and refused to eat after that. The sound of the door was heard, and the young man lifted his head a little to see a fresh-faced nurse walk in. She murmurs something about keeping the remainder of his dinner away, and Soraru did not reply to her. He stayed silent until he heard her leaving, the door closing behind her with a click. Only then did he turned to his back against the bed, and pushed himself upwards. He fumbled for the small device that allows him to turn the lights on, and clicked on the button. The wall behind his bed lit up in a warm glow of light, and Soraru sat at the spot on the bed for a few minutes.
He misses home. He misses the normalcy he was used to, not this place with white walls and cold surroundings. He shivered involuntarily, and sighs, drawing his knees up to his chest. He heard something rustle, and turned towards the sound. His eyes made out a shape of a man, with a white mask covering his facial features, and sighed. "Ren." upon hearing his name, the masked man stepped out, taking a seat on the chair next to his bed. It should not be possible for an imagination to be so real, but the thought was cast aside when Ren covers his hand with his larger own. He radiates warmth, and Soraru released a soft sigh, leaning in towards the other.
"I'm sorry for doing this to you," Ren finally spoke, his voice as soft as a baby's breath. Soraru tensed a little at the sound, but relaxed when he felt the other's fingers skimming over his knuckles. "it's not your fault," he replies, looking up to meet Ren's eyes. The other shook his head, grief clear in his green eyes. "it is," he insists, and squeezed Soraru's hand softly. "I'm just... I felt so bad." Soraru's heart melted a little at the sight, and he smiled at Ren. "it's fine," he repeated, waving his bandaged arm in front of the other. "I'm fine, see? Alive." the masked man's eyes crinkled up at the corners, and he nods, closing his eyes and resting his forehead against Soraru's.
Suddenly, a knock was heard, and Ren widened his eyes. He dropped a kiss on Soraru's forehead, and let his hand go, backing away into the darkness. Soraru watched him go, his fist clenching around thin air as the door opens-
"Soraru-san?"
Mafu?
a/n : so.. Ren is a significant character in this book, don't forget that. If you are confused about that guy, maybe dm me? I can explain to you. Or do you want to see how it plays out?
-
aru
YOU ARE READING
DIPHYLLEIA GRAYI(SORAMAFU)
Fanfiction" i just want to be loved. " ©lovejjong 2017 srr x mfu
