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by lovejjong

by lovejjong

Once Araki left, Soraru lowered his head, lip wobbling. "Are you okay?" Lon asked worriedly, and Anku ran a soothing hand through Soraru's hair. However, the moment Anku's hand grazed the top of his head, Soraru shoved him aside, standing up and running out of the cafeteria. "One of us should go and check on him," Lon suggests, and Anku sighed. "I'll check, but I'm not sure whether he will answer or not." "I'll go," Suzumu cuts in, before he looked at the both blondes. "You guys enjoy your food," he continues, before walking toward the direction where Soraru ran off to.

The brunette walked quickly, trying to find Soraru as quick as possible. He finally found Soraru in the park, knees pulled up to his chest as the boy stared at the grass. Suzumu sat down next to Soraru, and placed a hand on the boy's thigh. "Its going to be fine, okay?" He asked, and Soraru let out a bitter laugh. "Will it? The person I like is just playing with my feelings, and I feel guilty every time I tell my parents that everything's okay. Is that going to go away like the wind after- what, a month?" Suzumu kept silent, and Soraru laughed again, the sound a brittle and hollow sound. "That's what I thought."
"But I'll still be with you," Suzumu tried, he could hear the raw anger and hurt in Soraru's voice, and he tried to make it all go away, even if it's only for a while. However, Soraru just shut down, his face turning to one of the many masks, and hiding his feelings away. "I'm fine," Soraru says slowly, as if he says it a million times, he will believe it. "I'm fine," he repeated, before turning to Suzumu with a smile.
"You go ahead and finish your food- I'll come after I'm done with enjoying the air and shit," Soraru pushed Suzumu away, with a grin, and the brunette nods warily. "If you say so. You sure you're okay?" He asked again, placing a warm hand on his shoulder. Soraru shrugged it off, and nodded.
"It's okay. I've to check in on Neru anyway- you know he called in sick, right?" Suzumu nodded. "Yeah, okay, I guess... you wanna walk home together? I can come your house?" "No." The answer was abrupt, and Soraru avoided Suzumu's eyes. "I won't be going home that early today," he says smoothly, and Suzumu nods slowly, a grin taking over his frown. "Alright! I'll go first, okay?" He told Soraru, whom just grins back, before leaving the area.

Once he left, Soraru buried his head back into his arms, a grunt of frustration leaving his lips.

That's only the starting of the many lies.

Sorry for the lack of updates for CEO, I don't think I'm in the right state of mind to write that book rn. And sorry for the short chapter.
Btw the part with suzumu and anku searching nd standing up for soraru, that never happened with me irl, they don't really care whether I ran away or not, since they always thought im just emotionally unstable or smth, idk lmao.
smh I want a friend like Anku or Suzumu.
-aru