Deception **ON HOLD**

Chapter fifteen

Three months later)

   It's already April and Mason and I are doing great even though he has been a bit distant lately. I head to school and go into the choir room to practice my new song before class starts.

As the bell rings to go to first period all my friends but Mason came in and settled around me. This week I don't even ask where he is because I learnt no one not even his best friend knows. I shrug and stand up when the teacher asks me to sing and I start,"

Halfway through me singing and playing please don't go Mason bursts in with his hair messed up, face flushed and what I think is a hickey on his neck that he immediately hides.

I don't even question it as I know what he had been doing and finish my song before running out of the room and finding the nearest janitors closet and locking myself in.

I hear everyone calling me trying to find me and I look around andI realize that this was the same closet Mason confronted me in. After realizing that I break down with heartbreaking sobs escaping my mouth and tears after tears running down my face.

After two hours of crying I fall asleep with tear stains dried on my face, vowing never to say another word to anyone ever again.

*** end of school day*****
I wake to my friends calling for me again as the last bell rings and I ignore them. As I close my eyes again I hear a key entering the doorknob and I clact like I'm asleep.

I hear a man gasp and now it's the janitor before he yells, " hey kids, is this the girl you are looking for?" I pretend I'm still asleep as I hear multiple feet run down the hall. A minute later I hear Beth gasp and say," poor Sarah." And the others murmur yeah.

A few minutes later I feel a hand on my shoulder and open my eyes to see Mason and I go into a panic attack and push myself into the far corner and my breathing goes shallower and I pass out.

**** five hours later*****

I wake up in my bed to see Beth sleeping in a chair beside me. I sneak out to the bathroom and look at myself in the mirror knowing it was time to do it again. I grab my bod of razor blades and take one out before looking at myself in the mirror and pull my sleeve up before running the blade across my forearm relishing in the pain I deserve.

After fifteen minutes I clean up,cover my arm in a bandage and pull my sleeve down before being quiet and going to the kitchen. As I quietly walk through the living room I see everyone is passed out in there. I look on the counter in the kitchen and see a bag with my name on it. I open it to see a tray of Double Chocolate muffins and a letter to me from Matt.

I grab a few muffins and a glass of milk before sitting down to read it. - Dear Sarah,  sweetheart Beth explained everything to me. I am so very sorry. I want you to know that I am here for you all the way. Come seem me if you need to.
Love, your second dad.
Ps. Double Chocolate chip muffins are your favorite. I know, you love me.

I tear up at it and make a mental note to go see him later. I take an air horn out and go into the living room. I use it and all jump up and Beth runs from the room. They all look at me and I know Beth sees my arm cause I feel it bleeding. I croak out, since I haven't spoken in over twelve hours, "G-get o-out."
They try to argue but I point to the door and they all walk out. 

**** 20 minutes later *****
After freshing up and putting my favorite hoodie on I sneak out the window and down the fire escape from the living room. As I drive to my old house I wonder how I tell Matt I no longer speak. I pull in and walk into the servant door and to the kitchen with a notepad in hand.

Matt turns around and immediately looks at the note shaking his head sadly. "I'm so sorry Sarah bug." He says before pulling me into a hug.

** a couple of hours later***

I walk up the stairs to my second floor apartment and sneak in. As I'm laying on the bed I hear Mason knocking on my front door and hear him calling out that he is very sorry and I hear the door lock turning and decide to do what I have planned.

I go to the window opening it and sitting in the ledge as I hear the door open and close. Before he gets and closer I let myself fall from the ledge. All I hear before I hit the ground and black out is Mason yelling, " Sarah! No!"